Originally Posted by Brokenfriend

Trigger warning....Don't read if successible to others conditions.... Trigger warning...

I felt like my throat was closing in. I felt like I would choke. I felt a pins,and needles feeling. My heart would pound...my head would blank out...it was like a dark cloud of terror would move in on me. I'd lay down on a bed waiting for it to pass.

Then all of these phobias appeared. Soon I had dozens. Fear of elevators,going over bridges,getting a hair cut,sitting in the dental chair,eating with people,sitting in the auditorium,sitting in a movie theater,sitting in church,talking to people...etc.,etc...

My head was filled with pressure,my throat in front was filled with pressure,my solar plexus was tight...now hurts...the back of my neck was stiff...sometimes up to my ears... tension would go down my legs... my eyes would shake...my head would shake...I would clam up and loose my ability to talk...I would be massively confused... My face would turn reddish,and heat up... All of this together was terrifying... I lived in dread

My symptoms almost came back later in life. They where not the same as the ones when I was a teenager. My heart would pound,and my head would blank out. I had terror,and felt like I was going to die. My head would shake side,to side. I'm going to stop here. This is bothering me. I have hated these feelings,and felt like I was the only one on earth who had this. Brokenfriend

Originally Posted by Leemarie

Hey I am just wondering, have you ever considered Benign or Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension? Because doctors told me for months that I was having Anxiety and Panic symptoms but then was admitted to hospital because of swelling on my eyes and found out that I didn't have Anxiety, I had what I just asked that you may have. Benign or Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension (BIH/IIH) can cause your heart to race and have palpitations, stiff neck, pressure in the head, funny eye things and eye disturbances and much more but those are the main signs. You also get pain down your arms and tingling in your legs and arms. Just a thought as I thought I had Anxiety but this was all the BIH/IIH. Although, because I had been stuffed around with thinking that I had Anxiety, I have now sadly because of that stuffing around, developed a little bit of Anxiety. Anyway, hope this helps in some way maybe.

Originally Posted by reyn

Brokenfriend, I wish that I could reach through space and hold you with a heartfelt hug. Some of what you describe, I experience. It has gotten so bad that I'm having difficulty even posting online, a place where I finally found understanding and acceptance. I, too, live in a rural area -- I'd have to drive 30-60 miles to attend a support group! It's hard enough to get out of my house to a necessary doctor appt. . . .

I hope that you can find some peace,
reyn