Hi. I have had anxiety/depression/ocd for 12 years on and off. I had gotten to a better place after many inpatient stays at treatment centers for a combo of these issues and an eating disorder which is still good. Now face other health issues my anxiety is back in full force and depression but that usually goes with my pain level. So I have done every type of treatment ip residential,hospital,day patient,groups,outpatient therapy.There was one point I could barely leave my home from all my issues. A few ?'s have you looked into starting outpatient therapy and meds? If you call your local hospitals I know there are real time support groups of people suffering. What about family and friends in your real life to reach out to? I know for me I have to do a lot of self talk to calm myself down. I have to reach out to others when I don't want to. Try to find other outlets. I find the more I am around people and busy the better my anxiety is. That is why night time is so hard and why my chronic pain makes my anxiety worse. Some people find things like yoga and relaxation tapes help. You are not alone and if you want a buddy please email me.