[DiMarie]

I can not believe where the time has gone. For me it seems to have stood still. The seasons have come and gone, holidays, and months off the calander, yet my heart still weighs so heavy.

I know I am not the same person. I still have love and passion to care, but it feels like a clenching around my heart. Some days it seems I can just open the door and expect her to be standing there. I see a girl in the distance and my heart leaps thinking for a moment it is my child.

I spend much time watching my grandson, my son had shoulder surgery. Katie is having a lot of stress problems in school although she is an A student, she feels friendless. Work is going great, I am often thanked for the job I do with the families and kids. I am exhausted.

I do find great peace in reading the Guest book my dear friends had left loving messages in when I lost my De. It has been online for a year and everyday I open it to feel close to those that care and love me. But, so it will expire.

I just wanted to put the link as next month it goes off line and I am going to have the professional albulm they offer printed so I can keep it close to read and hold.

I know so many have left a note, but if there is anyone that did not know of the book of entry;s and De's pictures I am posting it again.
Feel free to read or write in it.
It has just meant so much to me and I want to have it always.

http://www.legacy.com/timesleader/GB...sonId=86128144

Unless you have a family or love one you lost, you cannot imagine the impact this wonderful site gives to us. To those that have used it for their family or friends you truely know how endearing it is.
My love and thanks to those that have posted, prayes and sent cards and love to us all.
It is a deep warm hug to me.
I love you all, keep praying that I become the strong person I once was.
Di

[Jomar]

Some day you will be back to your strong "old" self, I just know it.
I don't know how long it will take, or if it will happen all of a sudden, or if it is just a slow journey that needs to be taken.

But with time- it will happen

Love and Warm hugs for you and your family.

[astern]

Di, I know it's been so hard for you and you family this year. My prayes are with you all.


Anne

[LinJane]

Di I just want to let you know how much your support has meant to me over the years. I remember all the encouragment you gave me as I was diagnosed by Dr. T. and giving me information regarding TOS and the Wilkes-Barre area. I remember calling you after surgery from the Best Western. You are always there for others in need. I think of you often and always will remember how you helped me. I am so sorry for your loss of De and all the sorrow it brings you. As we all know, in one way or another, life isn't always fair. We think we are living a good honest life and things should go well, then the rug is pulled out from under us.

May you find peace and love with your family and know that your TOS family is thinking of you and praying for you. Linda.

[finz]

I can't believe it's been a year already Di...........how difficult this year must have been for you. They say it gets easier with time, but I can't imagine how it does when it's your child.

My continued prayers for you and your family

[dabbo]

Di- Words can't express my sorrow for you and your family. Your support, encouragement, and kind words have meant the world to me and to countless others on the board.

[johannakat]

Di- your memories will keep her with you for a long long time yet...every time you catch a glimpse or a shadow it is her way of saying hello

[tshadow]

Dear Di,

words just don't suffice here, and I can't imagine the depth of your pain. Our love, as mothers, is eternal. If you have a Christian belief, our solace is in the promise that we will be reunited with our loved ones someday, again, forever. I pray that for you, and for me, and my love is is always here if you need it.

[olecyn]

There doesn't go a day when I don't think of you...
How you are doing
How your Disney trip was
How you have helped so many patient's here with your inspiration and knowledge.
Especially, me!

I just cannot believe it has been a year
It seems just like yesterday but then so very long ago.
Just know I think of you
And what a brave wonderful person you are.
It's people like you I admire with the upmost respect.

Geeze, I'm lost with words.
XXOO