i guess i took some peoples advice and got a book of my poems published. thanks to all who read them and gave me feed back.

the resiprodal is working great. i don't seem to get as confused and frustrated with everyday life. it really helps in social situations too, but i still shake and feel embaresed around other people.

my next book is going to be about my inventions and stuff. seems i really feel bad about how my inventions are useless. how i will never actually be able to do anything with them. yet i can't stop thinking about new inventions any time i see anything? at least now my inventions and thoughts of pattern aren't exactly useless, they help my poetry? and now that i am selling my book (in a month or so it will be published) i can actually donate 15% profits to FARR. and that is just going to make me feel much better inside. gosh i wish i could donate to them with my own money, just no job kinda makes it hard to donate and all, teehee.

i guess i am going to start going out in public. i don't want to, but my wife says i should go to some poetry readings and read some of mine. plus she says that is where i will sell my book, at the poetry meetings. gosh i wish i didn't have to pay for the book, then i would just give them out. the idea that even just one person wants to read my poetry is exciting. but the aspie in me doesn't want to interact within social situation (as always). so i figure if i don't like to do social things, the best way to deal with it would be to do social things. i just have to take it logically (go figure an aspie having logic?teehee) and try to slowly waine myself into social situations. hopefully identifying certain aspects of myself that i may be able to associate new logic with.

my twin brother got married, and he actually asked me to come. which was nice since he doesn't like talking to me. the aspie rambling that i do gets on his nerves.

i have been trying to get my library to hurry up on getting me the RDI but they keep messing it up. i hope there are different avenues of reclassifying self aspects of social situations. i would like to work piece by piece and a great way of doing it is to see how i use to do something. but i have no real worries, just want the darn stuff! heck maybe if i sell enough books i could save the money and get RDI. gosh that would make me smile from ear to ear.

oh well, milli what are you up to? and thanks pamster for sending me the link to this board. kinda feel a little warm and fuzzy knowing at least this new board is up and working.

WOW! That's all so great Moose! What a FANTASTIC update!

How can I get my hands on those poems?

So, lots happening here too...COley is doing just great - guys you wouldn't believe how much progress he's made these last couple months! He's turning into a little man right before my eyes!



And, everyone sitting?

I'm 13 weeks pregnant! WHAT?!



So anyone else have life altering developments to share....guess we can get lot's done when we aren't tied to the PC chit-chatting huh!

KJ

WOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a nice shock to see you are preggers by seeing the ultrasound!!!

Did we know this before the board went down??? Honestly my memory is so rotten, if you said so before I don't remember - but CONGRADULATIONS!

And wow, Coley, what a handsome young 'man'!

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And hey Mr. Mooseman! I just emailed you, then came here and saw your post. I'm glad the risperdal is helping some!

I didn't know you had a twin brother, wowee. Did you go to the wedding yet? It hurts to see that's how he feels, I hope to God Carmen never feels that way about her brother. That would crush me if either one had any animosity towards the other.

As far as the social thing, I have no idea if this would help you, but I try to 'prep' myself and give myself emergency exits...like for instance, if things get to tense for you, your emergency exit could just be 'excuse me one moment please' and you leave, gather your emotions, and walk back. You don't need to give anyone a reason or explanation, your reply no matter what if you get to feeling like a gazelle in a mob of lions (that is my feeling) is 'excuse me one moment please'. Should someone say 'why' (which they won't) or 'can I get you something'...no matter what, that is your emergency exit, or escape route "excuse me one moment please". Heck, you're there promoting a book written by someone on the spectrum, they'll understand. It may finally be a chance for you to have success around people - chances are everyone there loves someone on the spectrum, or is on the spectrum themselves. But I gotta say, wow, that's one heck of a crash course in being around people!!! So major credit and kudos from me for tackling this,

YOU
CAN
DO
IT!

About RDI, I don't want you to answer cause it's personal, but if you are receiving any disability or whatnot (cause you mentioned you are currently not employed outside the home) call who ever it is that you get benefits from and see if they will pay for RDI. It's a long shot, but just an idea I just had. Or, maybe call the consultant closest to you....there would be a better chance of getting the truth about weather there is funding of some kind for you from the consultant that would be getting the money. Ya know? I know, a long shot, but might as well give it a shot.

My BEST to you and everyone,
Mili

Mili we just found out a couple weeks ago!

How's everything going with you, the kids & the animals?

KJ

Kudos on the preggers KJ!

Moosyman and Preggs woman Super congratulations that is super exciting