Mili, my beloved dog Jessie slowly lost the use of her hind legs after a rabies shot supposedly to protect her for 3 years. Right after the vaccine my dd noticed that she was burning and having kind of convulsions, at the time we thought she was having nightmares of running and eyes flicking inside her head. She got her a doggie wheelchair that she loved but when my son came home I couldn't care for two demanding beings, so after 6 months of taking care of both I had to put her down and she knew, she sensed, she trusted me so much and that made me cry forever, still writing this I am crying. So, I feel for you.

How aweful for your dog and your family!

CoCo has had xrays to show what's going on is in her discs in her lower spine, but we don't know if the inflamation is due to infection. If so, antibiotics (there are three choices, she'll be on her last choice starting tomorrow) will help her. If not, it would require surgery, and besides the expense no way am I going to a dog specialist to put her through all that when she's already reached her life expectancy (standard poodle, she's over 15). If this is due to age, and not infection, then I'll put her down. I don't feel anything about the idea of putting her down, it doesn't seem real to be honest. Seeing her as she is now, the way she looks at me so for lorn, that's the hard part. Poor girl. I've lost dogs to careless vets and so on, if she dies of old age, I won't be sad about it. I'll miss her, I'll grieve, but not like I did when I lost my first dog (I got him one day before her) who was her pal. Long story short, he was only 2, the vet screwed up.

I have so many pets and critters, I have a lot of death as well as life around here. Then again, as accepting as I feel that it's her time, I don't think it will hit me until she's not here anymore...fine with me. Who needs the extra grief.

Anyhow, for now, she's being spoiled with meat dinners every night, we can't leave plates around anymore....all the things I trained her not to do, and she never did, have been reversed in only a few weeks of spoiling. And that's just fine with me of course. Dh says if she gets any more spoiled, he's going to have to start peeing in every corner of the house so she'll know it's not hers, hee hee.

If she were still 'herself', cheerful, excitable, unable to resist a tennis ball, I'd be the first to get her a wheelie thing. She's just not the same dog anymore. Well, we'll see how the new and last antiobiotics work.

CoCo on her last and new antibiotics today. Still needs to be carried. Moved all the furniture so she can walk around it - she can't go backwards. Still carrying her up and down stairs. She bumps into everything, I'm hoping that's the pain killer taking the edge off. In about three days, if this is an infection, we'll know, and this should work...then she'll have to be on in probably forever as some dogs do. After one pill, she seemed a little better. Maybe I'm seeing what I want to see cause they don't work that quick. We'll see.

The vet said if worse came to worse, she could euthanize her in the car. CoCo loves car rides best...and still does but now cant balance to sit on the seat too well. I'll ask for boku valium or something to give her for the ride, so she'll feel like calm and tranquil, I don't want her to go out, let alone go out in a hard way.

Anyhow, I'll know in a few days.

I finished my kitchen floor yesterday...layed the whole thing in one day while the kids were at school - Ya hoo!

Now I really have to paint the cabinets, wow, they look gross.

Mili

It is! My NT children were devastated. We used to have many cats, all females and the only male, named Coco, a huge all black cat stayed with us for 14 years before dying of a stroke on my dd's lap even my husband cried.

Animals have an impact of us pet lovers.