I put my dog of 15 1/2 years to sleep yesterday.

She got tests...a cbc, xrays, she aparantly had some disc problems and infection in her lower spine. She was not able to control her back legs well, could not use stairs or get up from sitting. It was very horrible for her. It was a good 2 weeks of her suffering in vein, hoping the meds would work.

After losing close to 1/2 her body weight, I said no more.

She died after her favorite 'going bye bye in the car car' on the lawn under a tree, in my arms from the vet who met me there. It was mercifully peaceful, I was surprised she did not struggle at all. She just went to sleep. We are all ok, the kids didn't even cry I talked so much about how great heaven is and Steve Irwin being there to love her up.

More than grief is my relief that she is no longer suffering. I ball up the blankets on her bed at my bedside, so it looks like her there.

So, that's about it. And you don't have to say anything about CoCo. I've posted, I know you all know, that's enough. I don't really like to talk about it, but I just miss her. She was a better dog than I ever deserved. But what dog isn't? Humans should be more doglike in so many qualities.

I liked this, hope you will to...dunno who wrote it. I want to have Carmen write it out, and frame it with pictures of our three dogs, now all deceased.