KJ, I'm new to this forum, too, and am brand new to the internet as well, so forgive me if this is a dumb question. I didn't catch whether your son has a disability or, if so, what type. That might make a difference. I'm sorry you are going through all this, and none of this is your fault. I do not have children but hold the believe that every parent does the best he can, given what both he/she and the child are given to work with. This looks like the Autism page, and I know that can present extraordinary difficulties under most circumstances. It sounds as though your son was giving you a particularly hard time after the "set-to" with his friend. Perhaps he mistook something you said around that time frame and his feelings were [very unintentionally] hurt. You do need some good times for yourself and some good times with him, and they will come. Wishing you peace and times of happiness and joy ahead. billie