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I went into the hospital a few Mondays ago after seeing my psych doc. I was in there for 11 days. I do not feel like much was done there to make me feel better. The docs there did 3 med changes. They took me off of one drug and put me on two more. I hope they work. This is not why I started this thread! The reason was that Friday was my first day home and I almost called my doctor and told her that I needed to go back in there. All I did that day was go and see my therapist and go to the bank. I was completely overwhelmed, and couldn't take it. When I was in the bank parking lot I had a panic attack and could barely see or breath. I took a klonopin and just sat there crying. I was finally able to get myself home. This panic attack happened with me doing hardly nothing, now today I have to go out again and do much more. I have to take my two dogs to the groomers, go to the bank again, go to walmart, go to the grocery store, go see my therapist again and then go pick the dogs back up. This does not include coming home and cleaning and making dinner. I am so scared!!! I do not want to end up back in the hospital, but if I cannot handle everyday stress then I think there is a big problem!! Yes or no? My husband is always so supportive but I really wonder what he thinks when I cannot even handle seeing my therapist and going to the bank! After Friday happened I just sat around all weekend and rested. If I have a problem today I cannot do that! I am booked up most of the week with things that need to get done. Just writing this it sounds like it is going to be too much on me. These are normal tasks that people do everyday!! Why can't I be normal and do them without incident? I hate being bipolar and not being able to deal with stress and anxiety. I thought that was why docs put you on meds to make you able to cope!! Why don't they work? I have been on most of them and they all do nothing!!!


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