[tritone]

So this is where everybody went!

Happy New Year!

T

[Mari]

Hi, Tritone,
Nice to see you.
And Happy New Year.
Mari

[Curious]

hi tritone to NeuroTalk

[Wittesea]

Hi Tritone

Welcome to NeuroTalk!

It's good to see you here - so how are you doing?

[tritone]

This must be the spot where the cool kids hang out

Wittesea! - I've been very good. I'm going to cut and paste all that junk down below. What have you been doing? You and Mari have always been among the kindest and most insightful people. I hope things are going well for you?

Here is the cut and paste part. I'm lazy... From BT...

I started a new job in May, and even though I took a few steps down the ladder in status and pay I love it. I work for an agency that provides human services, mainly overseas in war torn areas, but also participated in providing aid after Katrina. I do IT network administration.

My wife is doing great, she started a new job this summer at a non profit as well.

We are in the process of closing on a much larger apartment in our building. Within the past few days some things came out in my background check, unfortunate things that I did when I was very sick but that I am forced to continually deal with and explain - in this case to the entire tenant's board. None the less it seems our closing will still go through with all the necessary approvals.

My wife and I had a huge falling out with my Mother back in October. My Mother is a very difficult person, poster child for various personality disorders... We started speaking again a few days before Christmas which was nice. We just have to be really careful with her because she can be extremely abusive and manipulative.

I've been on the 6mg EMSAM patch for about two months now. I was struggling a bit late summer; and fall/winter is such a historically bad time for me that I feel like I might have really proactively staved off a really bad depression. I haven't had any sides, none! It seems to be helpful. I notice myself having little bouts of genuine ok-ness and a lot less social anxiety during the day. I can't say its been a sudden or tremendous effect - but the last time THAT happened was with Celexa and it launched the most severe and damaging period of illness in my life.

I had some initial fears that the patch would make me show positive for amphetimine on my drug tests. My PDoc did a urine test in his office to put my fears to rest. It was negative. (the drug in EMSAM actually metabolizes to partly methamphetimine in the body). I still take lithium and Lamictal and also use Seroquel and Ativan in the evening.

I'm still struggling with the depression and some days are better than others... but in general things are good. I worry constantly about having to explain my past at work and that brings me a significant amount of fear. "coming out" to the tenant's board was as cathartic as it was embarassing because I feel like now they know and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

I'm coping, even with the hard stuff and sometimes I even feel good!

[bizi]

hi there tritone!
I will write more later!
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[tritone]

Hi Bizi! I hear birthday wishes are in order?

Originally Posted by bizi

hi there tritone!
I will write more later!
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[bizi]

hey there!
yes I am now ......
44!!!!!!
and i have quite a bit of gray hair to prove it!
lol
bizi

[Wittesea]

Tritone,

I'm so glad to hear that so many things are going well for you and that you are doing well That is such good news!

I can picture the tenants board in my mind and the whole process of sitting there to talk to them. It must have been terrifying at the time, but I can understand why it also felt like a good thing to get it all out and stop living with the worry and fear of having the past revealed. You are a good person, and despite any past mistakes you will always be a good person.

You and I have talked about this before, so you know how I feel and you know that I have never and will never judge you and you also know that the past never changed my opinion of you being a good person..... I'm glad the tenants board was also able to see that you are a good person (and I'm also happy to hear that you are getting a larger apartment... I remember you talking about your square footage once and so hearing that you are getting more room is great news)


I'm sorry to hear about the falling out with your mother. I can definately relate to that one. My mother and I have had a lot of difficulty recently. My whole life, my mother and I were alwasy like oil and water (didn't mix, but could co-exist next to each other peacefully) but recently we are like ammonia and bleach (each fine alone, but mix us together and you get a heck of a chemical reaction that clears the room and causes the HazMat team to be called in for clean-up). But we both keep trying, and on Christmas we each called each other when we knew there was no one home so we were each able to say Marry Christmas on each others answering machines.

Well, I am babbling again (as usual)

It's good to see you again. I'm glad you found us here. And I am very happy to hear that you are doing well.

Take care and keep in touch,
Liz

[befuddled2]

Tritone,

Nice to meet you.

befuddled2