Bobby never called me yesterday after his doctor appointment so I call him. He did now answer his phone all 3 times I called him so on the 3rd time I told him I am tired of being hurt over and over and him and I are done, we're zilts. I told him he really did hurt me and hung up. I have caught Bobby in too many lies and other things that no matter what he does know it still going to be over with him and I.

It still does not stop this aching heart of mine. I can't eat and all I want to so is sleep.

befuddled2

Dear Barbara
 

I'm sorry you are hurting. This situation sounds quite complicated and frustrating. :(

Your appetite will come back. Getting sleep sounds like a good idea.

Try to limit self-medication or any over-medication. I'm not trying to waggle a finger ... it's just that i used to and still get tempted sometimes, and i still fall for it sometimes when i am vulnerable.

But in my experience, it just makes things worse in the end. It takes the edge off temporarily, only to create other problems. In the case of alcohol it can cause us to lose our clarity and disinhibit us to where we do things we regret later. I'm not fond of the benzo's either but if you feel the need for something, try to stick to those and take the smallest effective dose.

I just hope you are ok. Please be careful.

Do get some sleep. Sleep is good.

I hope you wake up feeling a bit better.

~ waves ~

Thank you Waves. Yesterday was the day I took benzos and drank also. I do not want to take anything today as I don't need a hangover tomorrow again. I want to go to church tomorrow and try to get on with my life.

Like my sister said today and I have to agree with her: There's been too much hurt with Bobby to go back now."

It is complicated like most relationships usually get that have cause for one to end.

befuddled2

I think when the right one comes along - it should be easy.

this one is too complicated - or just not ready for any commitments at this time.

:grouphug:

Barbara,
Treat yourself with all the kindness that you can.
Please be careful.

M.

How can you end this and not be bitter or resentful. How can you still see him at hanks or else where that you hang out or you planning on never going to hanks again. you went there alot didn't you? YOu still have some friends there?that is the thing about dating someone in the group that you hang out with...if things don't work out then it is awkward in the group.
sorry you are upset about this.
bizi

Jo, him not committing has nothing to do with me breaking things up. I would not want to associate with anyone who lies to me, and betrays the friendship like he did.

Bizi, I am mad but I'm not going to let the anger control me. I am really thankful that I did not get in any deeper with Bobby before it could have been worse. I always try to make lemon aid out of lemons when it comes to life.

I went out to the bar today that Bobby doesn't go to. I can still go to Hanks at certain times and that won't bother me. I just won't go in when he does. In time it will not bother me. I see the guy in the bar I went with last year and it doesn't bother me.

befuddled2

P.S.
 

The people in Hanks are not friends so I don't feel bad about not going in there at the time Bobby does. They are acquaintances, not friends.

befuddled