Chapter One

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost....I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there,
I still fall in...it's a habit...but,
my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is MY fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter Four

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter Five

I walk down another street.
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oh alffe,
I have walked down this same street.....
~sigh
bizi

I have loved this poem for a long time, you introduced it to me a long time ago....
thank you for posting it

Alffe:

I've seen this before and it is a good one. Thank you for posting it.

befuddled2

We've all done this...walked down the same wrong street..
Just gotta pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again.

Hugs for the room.

Thank you, Alffe!

Bump for Nikko

Thanks Alfie! I think this was on the old forums which remain inacessable.

I've never seen that poem before but like it, been there.

I'm not the only one that can't get into the old forum? Thought it was only me. It won't let me acctivate it when I resigned up.

Bumping this up for my sweet Bizi....as a reminder that life is short and each day is truly a gift. Kay Jamison reminds us that "it is, what it is".

Self diagnosis is as dangerous as self medication in my humble opinion.
I have known you all of your life and you are harder on yourself than anyone else.

You are a wonderful gal....please stop this over examination of yourself and go do something fun today! You deserve it....really you do.

I love you.

Thank you for bumping this up Alffe.
Unfortunately how can I do what my therapist and pdoc have asked me to do without reexamining my current behaviors.
My therapist wants me to create a "mood chart" Daily examining how I feel and charting my moods to see patterns...i told her that I was not willing to do this as it could become an obcession for me.
My pdoc wants me to forcast with a calender for the next year in advance all of the times when I could become hypomanic to try to use the geodon as prevention...I suggested this to her and that makes sense, other than vacations I really can't predict this.
She wants this done before I see her in a few weeks....
So they both want me to analyze my life and I am trying to do this.
It does take me awhile and I know that you are worried about this public examination of things ...but for me...this forum is a safe place for me to do this.
thank you for worrying about me.
I love you.
bizi