thanks so much. the depression is still with me and i can't stand it but hopefully my getting the doggie will be a force in the other direction.
I also realized I have lived practically my whole life in fear. That can explain why i have isolated myself so much which has completely blown up in my face.
I have always been terrified about money and now i seem to throw the concern away with getting a dog. I am trying to help myself
bobby

Dear Bobby
 

establishing new patterns takes effort, and time. you are doing a good job. i am sorry it is so painful. :hug:

i know that the dog will take care of you, and i hope s/he will help you take care of yourself more, also.

i am glad about the tests going well too, of course! but you know, by the time i came back to post, you had posted about the dog and that TOTALLy took over my attention LOL. :D;):rolleyes:

love

~ waves ~

Oh bobby,
I am so happy for you and excited...You're getting a dog!!!!!!!
(((((((HUGS))))))))
bizi

thanks....i am really excited but my cousin really upset me tonite. he is the cousin who was my fallback in case i can't afford my apartment. he also told me to go back to school and earn my ph.d. in english and teach. i will be sixty six on the twenty third. eeks. he also told me to write a couple of novels to earn money. he basically told me i couldn't afford a dog and i did a lot better when i was under a lot of stress.
scarey. On the other hand i got the most beautiful note from Myra who said it was great and to not beat myself up and it was important for my mental health. Of course she won't if need be help me out financially.
bobby

Dear Bobby,
Happy early birthday.
That is such a weird cousin. But I'm glad to hear that your sister and you are communicating well.
M.

hugs to you today bobby
(((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

thank you..really messed up big time today..wrote my friend who is helping me financially about the dog and now i think she will no longer help me...
also was severely depressed this morning and afternoon before i wrote her...feel better now even though lost mammoth security..
eeks what did i do--when will the fears of homelessness return
bobby bipolar at her best

Can you write a letter hand write a letter and send it to your friend.
bizi

Dear Bobby,

I hope you get a picture of the doc soon so we can see him/her.

M.

what would i say?
bobby