Dear Mari,

yes, basically ok.

i'll be honest... i feel a bit weird. just weird. not good or bad weird... something i can't put my finger on... can't find a good word for... like, i don't feel fine-good. i feel ok as in i see more-than-adequate functioning in areas where before i struggled.

there is an odd sense of ... well... discomfort that just doesn't fit neatly anywhere. it isn't like coming down from a high where you feel disappointed in normalcy or anything like that - i don't feel "blah."

but... kinda disoriented perhaps?

and BOY could i EVER use a massage!... oooooh man... could i! Had a friend at university with hands of an Angel... we would trade massages... trade secrets too, lol... could use them right now.... hehe... hands and secrets both!

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
I hear you about a message!
Maybe with the right tools and space one could approximate a massage with a hot tub and jets.

Also a message would help one get restful sleep I think


Are you in transition --- waiting to see what will happen next?

You seem more ok than at other times.
Believe it and go with it.


M.

sure... the with clause being the contingency there... i am without.

yes i am ok. i do believe it.

waiting... i dunno. i mean for that matter, i have been in a wait state for years...

i really don't know what the weirdness is. i just don't know. it's not like i'm worrying about it... just stating it. it is just there.