Dear Abbie, :hug: :hug: :hug:
Good luck with the PT Wednesday.

M

Checking in after a long silence.
 

It's been a while since I've checked in so I thought I would drop a note....

A couple of months ago my 2nd to oldest niece passed away due to being drowned. I can't go into the details as it is still very raw and extremely painful.

I tend to hold everything inside and this has caused me to go deaper into my hole more than I ever have.... I choke back my tears and I really don't talk about her and what happened...not in much detail anyway. I will say she holds a big piece in my heart and was my mini-me.

You know how your parents say... I hope you have a child just like you...well, my sister had mine. Ashley looked so much like me only difference is she had blue eyes and straight blonde hair... I have brown eyes and curly blonde hair--well I did at her age. We had the same build.

BUT, our personalities matched to a T. She talked like me, attitude was just like mine, she got into trouble for the same things I did... I tried to warn her. But there were things she just had to test...learn for herself.

This is why I have been so quiet and mostly just lurking.
:hug: for all...
Abbie

Oh Abbie, words can't express how sorry I am for your loss. I am sure you and your family are devastated. :( We're here for you though, if you need to talk. Take care of yourself hun. :hug:

Abbie

Pam said it just right. I too am here for you if you need to talk.

Donna:grouphug:

Dear Abbie, I knew that you had been hurting from other posts. thank you for sharing here.
soooo sooorrryyy for your loss.
She has a beautiful smile!
YOu have a beautiful smile if I remember right!
love you
bizi

Abbie I'm so sorry that Ashley passing away. Please talk to any of us about your loss. How is your sister,and brother in law doing? BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hi, Abbie,

I am sorry that you are suffering from the loss of someone so beautiful and dear.
I deeply appreciate your description of your niece.

M

My sister and BIL are doing good. As well as can be expected. The whole family is still handling things in a very scattered way... everyone handling thing in our own ways.

So much is still so very raw....and a place in all of our hearts is so very empty as it will forever be.

We've all been doing our own little things to remember her... from flowers and solar lights to little statues left on her site. We just hope this time someone leaves them alone and leaves them for Ashley.

I think it will really hit me the hardest when the stone is set.... It will make it more real...permanent.

Thank you for asking...
Thank you more for caring!!
Thank you ALL for caring!!!
:hug:
Abbie

Abbie, we don't know each other at all, and I am rarely here anymore, but I want to express my sorrow to you at the loss of your niece. I originally came to this forum seeking information for my bipolar daughter. Sadly, she died in January 2011 in a house fire which also destroyed our home. It's been almost a year and a half, and I still tear up just thinking about her...her picture is in my signature. She was troubled, had her problems, but there were many good times, and I still feel guilty that my husband and I got out of the house but, being in the upstairs bedroom, she did not.

Please hang in there, keep plugging away.

I heard a saying the other day that I had heard before but it really fits this situation:

"When you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on"

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: {{{{Abbie}}}}}

Thank you Jacquie!
I'm so very sorry for your loss!! Your daughter was very beautiful!!!

I'm holding on as best I can....but I'm sure it will hit me hardest when I see it set in stone. I'm not looking forward to that day.

Thanks again,
:hug:
Abbie