Mari, I only suggested you use the ambien because you weren't getting enough sleep....you tried lunesta?


I am very sorry that your tdoc was not helpful to you....
she should be supportive to you....

bizi

Mari

I hope you can find a happy medium soon.

Donna

Hi, Bizi
 

Dear Bizi, :)
It's ok.
I have both ambien and lunesta. They both work. I don't take them because I don't need them. When I go to bed I sleep fine.

It's hard to explain. I stay up and don't go to bed. I watch tv, go on the computer, read, do anything except go to bed.

It's not logical, but that's been going on my whole adult life and getting worse.


M.

Hi,

I am sorry that my post was confusing.
I have anger from that horrible Lexapro or something.

Tdoc was fine but I was not in the mood to listen to her.
Hubby and I have an appt with her in mid-June.

M.

I understand your sleep issues, I wish I could help you figure this out.
I thought you were having a harder time getting to sleep during the day too....and that it was getting worse....I am sorry that the lexapro was not a good drug for you.
bizi

it really sounds like a hunger strike .....you want your own space and it is more important to you than physically feeliing good....i think there is logic in there somehow...before i thought you were keeping vigilance but maybe you aren't.
bobby

Dear Bizi,
You are right. I resist sleep at night and in the day now.
I'm sabotaging my self for some reason.

M.

Dear Bobby,
Yes, there is a vigilance aspect to not sleeping, but it is not the whole thing.
Can you tell me what you mean by hunger strike?

Sometimes I feel that part of it is a rebellion against something.

M.

a hunger strike is a rebellion against a higher principle usually....i wonder what you might be fighting. you mentioned a little while ago that at the time you hated your parents. you will still probably say yes to them even with leprosy when they invite themselves to visit you. Maybe if you start functioning on a two year old level and start saying no to everything even if you want to to define and assert yourself you may allow yourself to go off strike. a two year is oppositional because he is the process of defining at least who he is not
bobby

Mari

I have a wild type idea here too. I'm wondering if you are afraid to go
to sleep during the day now. Because of your stroke last year.

I'm wondering if its more that you are scared of not waking up.

I hope that you can continue to work through this.

Donna:grouphug: