Waves,
Thanks for the radio links. :)
I listened to one station.
I am going to find a few so I can skip back and forth between commercials.

M.

Mari

I don't know your parents. But I have a feeling its more because even
though you reassured them you are going to be okay. They still aren't
sure. And if they don't talk about it, it didn't happen.

I sometimes think thats how we all are. If we can push something
under the cover its not there.

I know that for a long time many people thought if they didn't talk
about Derrick's seizures. He didn't have any.
Especially my one sister. It was so bad, that her son who is my
son's age. Was the one that finally told her. He knew what to
do if Derrick had a seizure. So Derrick could go home with him.

My son has had seizures now for 12 years. My sister has finally
started accepting that he is going to continue having them.
Its taken almost 12 years. But she finally came around. But the
sad part is my son and my nephew would have gotten more years
together if she had come around a few years sooner.
See she had a hard time allowing my son to come over at all.

But thanks to my nephew she had to accept that he was coming.
Once he started driving, he just picked him up and took him over.

Donna

Dear Donna,

Thank you.

I sorry that you and Derrick had to put up with that.

M.

Mari

The point is it started to change how she saw my son.

It also seems to have changed how she sees some people who
have disablilities. She seems to have theses co-workers now
that need help. WHich I'm so glad she can finally get me to help.

Its something I enjoy and she knows that. I'm just glad she
has finally started to care.

Donna:grouphug:

Dear Mari
 

i can see why it would be hard to share about the stroke with people... friends... colleagues when your family is scared of it and seemingly can't or doesn't want to deal.

it makes me sad that you felt like it was your fault. :( i understand how that can be though. how many times have i felt that depression was my fault... :o sigh.

i hope that nowadays you are able to hang on firmly to the knowledge that it is NOT IN ANY WAY your fault.

~ waves ~

Its a sad world when we start to think that the illnesses we have are our
faults. I am not sure what else I started to write. I can't believe
I started this about 30 minutes ago.

Donna

I don't even want to come here to post.
I'm very upset now that I figured out part of my issue.

I cry.

I really hate my parents.

M.

(((((( Mari ))))))

i am so sorry you are going through this. :(

~ waves ~

I am very sorry for you Mari, I hate you suffering....
Is your hubby there can you ask him to give you a hug?
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i am so glad you are posting and making progress....how painful it is but it progress and the suffering will lessen
bobby