I'm starting to seriously consider that my younger brother (17) could possibly have bipolar disorder. He gets VERY VERY sometimes SCARY angry over very small things that wouldn't bother someone else, and it's like he SNAPS. Sometimes he gets litterally like this and it's scary sometimes. I try to do everything I can to help him but he freaks out even more and says things like 'I DONT NEED YOUR HELP' and things. I don't even know what to do, and he's so young that I don't think he understands what happens is NOT normal and that it effects me so much. I'm going to be honest with you, (as much as it hurts) I can tell you that I 100% believe in my stomach that my brother doesn't care about me at all. I know that sounds a bit extreme but I can't explain it. I love my brother more than most other humans on this planet and I constantly feel like my efforts are always wasted.

I want to help him, but when he treats me like s&#* when he's mad, and it then it turn makes me livid/upset/depressed/whatever, it makes me never want to talk to him again. I probs shouldn't be worrying about other people when I can't even function/handle my own life, but he's my brother and he won't even hug me... like if I knew the way he was acting was STRICTLY because he's a 17 year old boy and doesn't 'get it' yet, I'd be okay, but it feels way more than that. Like he knows exactly what he's doing.


I needed to get this out. I'm sick and tired of being treated like I don't matter.