I am sorry that you are feeling these negative emotions.
I can't tell you how to feel.
I wish it were differently though....
you are a lovely woman and I wish you felt better.
You are taking good care of your pets.
Once they get in the hang of things ...it should ease up on you.
bizi

Dear Bobby,
Even if you are not loosing weight, you are still helping yourself because the Ornish diet is very good.

I guess that Luc does not know how to walk with a leash. He will get used to it. Would it help to use the leash a little in the apt too -- so that he gets better with it outside -- I don't know because I have not worked with dogs/puppies.

I'm sorry you are depressed. Some days and some times really stink.

M.

i am sorry you are feeling so rotten Bobby.

i agree that it will get better though. this adjustment period is tough. good idea to try using the leash in the apartment so Luc can get used to the feel.

it's ok he is a bit reluctant for now... gives you time to get used to walking as well... TWO walks today, wow that is great!

don't worry about the scales and well done staying on the Ornish plan.

love

~ waves ~ who is always ravenous at night nowadays...

luc walked much better this morning. i had tried to walk him in the apartment on the leash and it didn't work. the smells outside get him moving.
i still feel very depressed. my sister made an overture and invited me to a play in central park with al pacino and to dinner but i declined. i told her i couldn't inflict myself on her but i was really touched.
i did gain back two pounds but i am still sticking with the diet. that was also depressing. i also can't find where luc is peeing in the apartment. today his tail was up a lot when he was walking rather than down so he is getting less afraid
bobby stuck

Dear Bobby,
That is nice of your sister even though you turned her down.

Luc seems so cute -- going out with his tail up.

M.

oh thanks...i am so worried i am going to have to get rid of Luc. I am doing everything wrong. I am not leaving him alone. I am staying in the apartment with him and hardly leaving him alone which is creating the foundation for separation anxiety. I stayed outside the door for twenty minutes the other day and he made noise the whole time. my neighbor kept on talking to me the whole time so luc probably heard me. i couldn't tell the neighbor to go away. i have no energy. my sleep is awful and i just feel like crying most of the time. i haven't cracked but i have been under so much stress the past weeks. yesterday somebody hacked my primary email address. i don't know if hotmail will restore it for me. i can't get into it and the person sent out phoney emails.
He is such a precious dog. If i have to give him away it will break my heart.
I feel like such a weak whimp. I can't get rid of this depression. I am not going to take the lexapro that Dr. M. prescribed rather than upping the welbutrin because I read that lexapro can make you gain weight. I can't afford to gain any more weight and am trying to lose weight. I am such a wreck.
bobby

where did you read that about lexapro?

as i see it, you are more likely to gain weight due to being hit by an asteroid, than due to taking Lexapro.

i agree that everything is possible but Lexapro is NOT LIKELY to make you gain weight. i just looked it up on rxList to see if i was missing something but... it does NOT list weight gain or appetite increase as side effects. it DOES list appetite DECREASE and other minor side effects which, if anything, would cause you to eat less, not more.

are you sure there was not some confusion with tricyclic antidepressants as those are in fact associated with weight gain. and still not to the degree of then newer antipsychotics.

i am sorry you are having such trouble with Luc. i hope you can hang in there a while longer. is there anyone you can visit to just get away. he may be able to smell you just outside the door, even if you are not talking.

love

~ waves ~

hi
i did a search of lexapro and weight gain and read a lot of reports of weight gain on lexapro and didn't look at symptoms on rxlist just first hand reports.
i could go to the roof garden but then i wouldn't know how long he was making noise and then it would be such a drag going to the roof garden every day....i just don't have any energy which might be from depression and disturbed sleeping. I also suffer a little from a bit of poor balance.....it is like everything is an effort. the crate is way inside the apartment and the apartment smells of course like me so i think he will be confused whether i am outside the door or inside the door since i don't know how he will be able to differentiate. he just won't be able to see me. he did hear me.
bobby

Are you going to up the welbutrin? did I understand that correctly?
that sounds like a good idea.
not usre if that is what you said/meant?
I am sorry about luc, he is a sweet dog.
one of the things that my parents do or have done in the past with their dog...was they got a "KONG" toy it is a heavy bell shaped toy. they make them in different sizes.
when ever they leave they give it to him and put peanut butter on the inside of it...he has fun and likes the peanut butter and gives him something to do and distracts him.
It worked for them.
bizi

dr m doesn't want to raise the welbutrin to 450. i did buy a kong for luc and i do put peanut butter in it but he gets so upset he doesn't bother with it when he is in the crate. i left him in the crate for about fifteen minutes and he carried on. he didn't touch the peanut butter. i came back in and left him in the crate where he could see me and told him quiet and he was quiet. i just went out of his sight and he started to carry on but as soon as he saw me again he quieted down. it has become a big problem in such a short time.
bobby