Dear Jen,
I hope that you are safe under the tornado warning.

I have to see my therapist this week too and I fret about what's going on, but mostly I know that she is the professional.


You did a good job of writing up that nineteen page document. Your therapist will understand, and, as you said, she can read when she can.

M.

Jen

Not sure where you are at in the tornado warning. Sending good thoughts.

We are having bad weather again in Indiana.

Donna

i hope you are safe from the storms Jen, and that they lift the warning soon. :o

i also hope you can manage to get some rest tonight.

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

just wanted to say thanks everyone for the support...hugs
jen

HI jen
hope you are able to sleep tonight.
not sleeping can bring about pychosis, paranoid thinking and delusional thinking. It is good to write out your feelings, when it becomes an obcession when you can't stop then it is worrysome.
I hope you bring it in...let her decide what /when to read it....make a copy for yourself if you want then she can keep the copy.
It is hard working thru issues.
keep writing/posting here.
we will listen to you.
bizi

Thanks for the kind words. I found out that the paper work has to be sent to the doctor yet on the 18th and not befre. Right now yes I do take Tylenol with codeine and also I take soma, but i hardly take them except at night and then I over took them today whnen I got home from T.

As the writing goes she wasnts me to keep writing. She says sometimes that the only ways I do the toileet because bending is so hard.

I called my pharmasist about those pills today, well yesterday. I didn't mention them at all and asked what I can take to help me get some sleep and the first and only thing he said was benedryl, which is pretty much exactly what that is.

So I am going to go back to bed. I have been pretty much in bed since 3 this afternoon. I feel pretty good rigt now about it. I guess I was on the phone with a friend and wasn't sounding right and she was going to come over but I told her to call me in a hour but she never called or anything...so i just let it be.

Well, It's weird that's it's only 10:15 at night and I don't feel too bad.

Lots of things in my head, and T said go ahead and write as much as need to because she gets things that she never knew about me before out. I can talk about that some other time if need be.

Hugs, Love,
Jen

You did a great job Jen

Keep it up.

Donna:grouphug:

I really started to feel sick a little while after writing this. But I have also been getting the worst headaches in the morning and don't know why. Those have been going on for about 2 weeks, and I used to get them all the time, but now they are when I wake up and last for a long time. They aren't migranes cause I at least can get out of bed most of the time, but this morning I made sure I had everything I needed right by me...it was 2:30 am and just put a cold bag over my eyes and ended up falling asleep for about 45 min. Still not feeling the best, but at least don't feel like I am going to throw up.

I have a lot of things to do today. Today is my last full day alone so I better get some things done around here. I have laundry and to clean but not too much I guess, I just like to do everything and get everything done at once.

I have been keeping a sleep diary and figured that I got about 5 hours of sleep from yesterday afternoon till early this morning and usually it's about 2.5-3. So hopefully can use the pills once in a while. I won't take them during the day like i did yesterday but it felt good to get a little more sleep than usual.

I was also thinking that when i called my pharmacist yesterday he said benadryl, this is like a benadryl pm...i don't know if there is a difference or an added ingrediant, which i am sure there is, so maybe i should be more careful.

But it's now 4 am and am sure will be up for the rest of the day cause i feel like i got way too much sleep and am almost feeling guilty even though there is nothing i can do during the overnight hours, not like i can do my laundry espeially when we live in an appartment complex. But that's how I am feeling.

Take care and thanks to everyone,
Jen

Dear Jen,
It's weird to feel guilty when we are working so hard to feel ok
As you say, that's how we feel and sometimes we feel what we feel.
I'm glad you slept somewhat.
Maybe getting laundry done and out of the way will help you.


M.

Dear Jen

you are doing a great job with the journaling. i am glad your T gave you good feedback about that, and i hope you feel more comfortable with it.

i just want to point out that just because the headache is not bad enough to keep you flat on your back does not mean it's not a migraine. migraines can vary significantly in severity. there are also acephalgic migraines (no headache - only other symptoms). the fact you started feeling sick also suggests migraine to me. again, nausea does not mean you feel like you're gonna throw up. it can be milder.

i hope these spells.... you have enough troubles. unfortunately stress can exacerbate them, and when we don't/can't sleep we are more stressed. :(

keep hanging in there. not long to go now before your appointment with the sleep doc :hug:

~ waves ~