Since I am still wrestling with the idea that I maybe bp with no mania is what I am feeling right now a mixed state or normal for what I've been through today? I will tell you what happened.

I called the electric company yesterday because the whole town was without power, wanted an estimate on how long it would be out so could decide if I needed to go get the kids from school or not.

Was informed that town would be back on by noon, so no need to go get kids. But I had a disconnect notice on my account for non payment.

I had paid the bill by phone on the 16th, my bank statement showed the funds were transferred the 17th. I had a balance of $3.

I got the bank to fax the electric company my statement showing the amount and date of transferr. Was told to avoid shutoff to pay the amount again. An impossibility as we are on disability and get paid once a month and it is the end of the month and payday is not until Sat. by then new bill would be due.

Called back to make sure they had recieved statement yesterday but fax number is in TX while customer service is out of the country. Didn't show up until to day after service disconnected.

Spent all morning getting run around on why they showed by bank statement, understood that it showed they were paid but still turned off and situation was under investigation.

Waited for them to call me back(do they ever?). Called again and finally got someone that gave me the bill matrix number so they could track my payment. They had told him that I had tried to pay on the 16th from their records.

Called them, their records showed that bank had authorized the payment but had failed to transfer the funds. I called the bank and my balance was now the $3 plus the amount of my electric payment of the 16th. How convenient.

Called the electric company back, tried to reconnect service. Made the payment as requested but was told now I would have to pay not only the reconnect fee but a deposit of $400 to re-establish service.

Finally got them talked into billing me for the deposit and reconnect fee and got the service back on. I will be changing electric service as soon as I can. I had contacted another company but could not meet their deposit of $50 until Mon. So will do that on Mon.

I am wanting to cry, scream, throw things, hit something all at the same time. Plus have a very bad headache. Is this a mixed state? Or a reaction to everything?

My ativans helped some but I'm still irritable and anxiety ridden.

I am going to go eat supper, feed my horse which I didn't get done, and try to calm down. My daughter wants me to watch a tv show with her later. (She finally got her first chocolate week and she's 15 so was all in all feeling alot better until this hit.).