I have both BP II and ADHD- and a big list of other health and mental health problems.

The past year I've had a lot of memory loss due to some physical problems that are going on neurologically. Plus I take a lot of meds that can also cause memory loss as well- but I've been on them since 2003: so if they were to cause memory loss- we would have caught it a very, very long time ago and all of this memory loss stuff would have started to show up back then. But it didn't. This year- it has been a complete mess!

I have been doing the following strange things and don't realize it until I find things that I've done- "LATER": The coffee pot put into the fridge, clothes put into the dryer/washer- not turned on: go to see if they are 'done'- and find out I never turned either of both machines on (this happens on a daily occurance), forget I'm cooking (a lot- so I am trying to use the crock pot to ensure cooking safety measures), get lost when I'm driving to doctor appts. or running errands (in a town we have lived at for 8 years. Hmm.. Do not understand that one at all! I could go on and on - Do you see what I'm talking about?

DH thinks he has ADHD- and thinks he 'knows what it is all about'- etc. and that it is a multi-tasking illness; he has absolutely no clue. He thinks 'that is my biggest problem'. NO CLUE WHATSOEVER.

Today- This is the latest thing I did and it will end up costing us $1,000 to correct my latest damage to our home due to a new mess from my malfuntioning brain (which DH thinks I just don't THINK thru my processing when I think- but I actually do think thru- something isn't working in my brain!)

Potty training dog: Dog isn't doing well. Bought a potty spray scent to spray on grass and potty pads. For some really odd reason, I sprayed it on the 'carpet'- saturated it infact (have lost my sense of smell/hearing- long story)- something severely is wrong with me neurologically, very wrong. THEN put the potty pads on top of the sprayed carpet (the potty attractive sprayed carpet-drenched evidentally (without even realizing I did it at that time).

Five minutes later doing something else I suddenly realized what had happened- Freaked out! Told DH- I had to. Due to loss of smell- only could smell a faint smell of the sprays- sons and DH were sick due to the 'vast spraying' I had done to the carpet. It was a huge mess!

I did a search online and found a way to saturate it up to get the stench out but more than likely we will have to completely replace the carpet- which is expensive and only 4 months old.

Talk about feel like true crap. This week I have been acting very strange- not like my usual self. Have some very serious health problems. No one in either of our families give a crap; no one. None of my friends care to listen about my health issues- I feel so alone. My DH finally blew up at me about the mental/phsycial health. Due to the physical issues- it has limited our social life and family life functioning.

Right now I'm at the lowest point in my life. Tomorrow at least I meet with my counselor. It won't make much of a difference. I just feel like all I am is one big piece of a walking nightmare for my DH. To our families- a huge joke.

They think I'm a drama queen.

Thank you for listening to me whine and bicker.

Dear Coffeegirl,

i am so sorry all this is happening to you.

can you get in to see a neuro? i agree these things don't sound like ADHD. and these aren't pure memory problems either. it sounds like you are going on automatic pilot but aren't really "there" some of the time.

the only thing that comes to mind, but i really don't have a vast knowledge of neurological problems so take it as a casual suggestion, is complex partial seizures. a person will often go on doing "routine" things but they are not cognizant at the time... and won't necessarily do things quite right (consistent with putting a coffee pot in the fridge, or spraying the carpet as if it were the grass). but i'd say you really need a doctor here. i imagine there could be lots of other conditions which might cause lapses of some sort. they will probably want to give you an EEG and MRI to see what is going on.

please get medical attention right away!

and keep in touch if you can! i want to know how you are doing.

good luck!

~ waves ~

Coffeegirl

You defineately need to see a neurologist that deals with both mental
and physical issues. Waves is so right, it does sound a lot like complex
partial seizures. But there are other things it could be also.

I can't remember off the top of my head what all they would be
but there are.

Please get a hold of you doctor that deals with your mental issues and
explain everything just the way you did here. I believe then he/she
will either run the test or refer you to a doctor that can.

By the way my son has complex partial seizures as one of his many
kinds.

Donna

Dear CoffeeGirl,

how are you doing???

~ waves ~