I keep telling myself-to look at the Positive.Live in the NOW.Don't be depressed. But I just can't help it! I'm hurt. And I assign blame. But not to you anymore. Because, I truely love you. And I always have. I've trusted you even when you didn't trust me. I never knew your motives. God wouldn't let me see the hate or experience the hurt. All the time. Every meeting for the last 7 years. You didn't listen to me AT ALL. To your hearts at all. To God, untill NOW. And one of you, has SO much influence. And I always respected you. And I still do. You're still my brother. If you want to be. And I'm still waiting. For your forgiveness. For your decision. For you to smile at me Genuinely. And accept me. Faults and all, Illness and abuse, and everything. I haven't displayed your mistake to everyone. I will never make it a point to tell others about this pain. I'll only cry to myself. And to my husband,and to God. I'll never take you all down from the pedestal I put you on. Your family is all I ever wanted to be a part of. I always sincerely loved you all. And yes. I am disappointed. How could I not be? But I've never loved you all more than I do now. I'm hurt. And it's okay. I forgive everyone who ever hurt me in any way. And I hope the people I've hurt in my life, forgive me, TOO.

Colombiangirl, this is truely from the heart. You dearly love your family. Sometimes though I think when it is the inlaws, we NEVER meet their expectations, even it one was perfect they see the flaws.

You are a beutiful person, be good to yourself, husband and family, that is what counts. Say a prayer for those that don't understand.
You can't educate them, they are set in their ways. But, many friends and other family have unconditional love, that is what counts.

For everyday the others live yours is twice as long and twice as difficult until you rest your head.
But you have great friends to make here
Nice to chat last night,
dianne

dear girl1,
Welcome
I read about your recent episode with mania.
I am so sorry that you have been experiencing this.
Ya know
our meds can putter out after a few years and we have to try other meds...some work great for a longer period of time while others may not last that long at all.
So it really is a challenge to find the right meds for the right time.
It is called the medicine merrygoround or rollar coaster ride...tough to know which ones will work for us.
It sounds as though you were experiencing mania...
very scarey indeed.
the psychosis hooks in with bipolar 1...that is me too.
((((HUGS)))
again welcome.
bizi

Girl1,

I 2nd what Diane said to you.

befuddled2

Dear colombiangirl1,



Mari

I wanted to let everyone know that when I posted this poem, I was not feeling well mentally. Not like I do now. I was suspicious of everyone who loves me. The people this was written about do truely love me and support me and only have my best interest at heart and always have. Sorry to anyone who reads that and takes it to heart. I don't really feel that way. Again SORRY. Love, -Cgirl-

how are you doing?
bizi

Welcome.......How are you doing?


Hugs, Nikko