[OhKay]

I know you're very busy...

But I was just wondering about the classes, employment ops, and how you're feeling in general.

I hope you've been able to find more time for your self & that everything's okay.



Kay

[bizi]

adding hugs.
(((((((HUGS))))))
xoxo
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Waves

Wanted to add good thoughts, love and say. Hoping you are starting
to have a better few days.

Donna

[waves]

hi Kay,

thanks for the thread.

and thanks bizi and donna for the hugs and good thoughts

i'd actually been posting recent happenings to the old oct 8 tgif thread:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread134669.html if you want to see some blow by blow stuff sorta kinda.

where i left of is basically i am trying to recoup.... that's basically where it's at still... very tired. physically, mentally, emotionally.... just....... done in.

take care everyone

~ waves ~

[Dmom3005]

Waves

I think your spirits have risen* In this thread *


Donna

[waves]

lol Donna... speaking of spirits...

or well nah never mind

i am feeling a little better. not as incredibly sensitive to everything all the time. you used a word to describe me/my state before - "raw" - i use that exact same word... nail on head.

i am still feeling pretty down, amotivated and antisocial. haven't even felt like posting much. i am fighting some personal demons and it's kinda hard. i started to post about it before, but it ended up bothering me. i am trying to figure out if i can try again or if i'm better off keeping it private.

thanks again Kay for the the thread, and don't worry about "missing" the goings on in the other one...

i will "adopt" this one now, for my updates... since it is indeed more aptly titled

~ waves ~

[waves]

well the past couple of days have turned out ok - better than hoped...
we had a long weekend (monday holiday) - i got kinda grumpy and felt suffocated today but not excessively, considering both parents home and in living room and watching tv talking etc.... and then later mom started going on in alarmist fashion about various things (that wears me thin, very quickly).

the thing is though, despite all this, i even got a little productive between sitting around.... fiddled with - troubleshot - tried to fix - uninstalled - downloaded - reinstalled - verified functionality - of some software i need to do the extra assignments from the class. this is a relief because when i found the software didn't work it was like, GROAN... i HATE dealing with installation fiddlygoop. well it's done.

the plan was to try get back with the program, or at least, some program, this week.

so the plan for this 4-day week is
- try and get used to getting up before 10-11 am again, sigh!
- work on assignments
- touch base with epilepsy center about doing some office work
- touch base with consultant i put on "hold" and see if he has written me off or what.
- send updated resume if he hasn't
- call school to advise teaching availability (maybe...i have some concerns to work out first)

my emm, "demons" have been somewhat tamer. tomorrow when i get out and about (pdoc appt) will be a major test to see to how much trouble they are going to make.

overall mood is better. feeling very insecure about work things... probably normal.

~ waves ~

[bizi]

wow!
you do sound better. I am glad for that!
I hope it goes well with your pdoc visit and good luck with your "demons"
hugs to you my friend
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[waves]

woke up at 9 today...well... after the other n times i half woke up feeling cold... ack. need to regulate the heater better.

i already had one cup o coffee but i'm SOOOOOOO sleeepy again.... RONFFF....

i just want to curl up under the covers..... argghhhh. (shoulda put the bed up when i made the coffee but it was so cold so i got in it again and got on the computer......

arghhhhh.......getting up is so harddddddddd!!!!

i don't wannnnnnnnnnnaaaaaa!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!

waves

[bizi]

I can appreciate that!!! need to get going!
bizi