This isolation is one of the worst feelings to endure. I sit in my apartment alone all day with only a few moments of phone contact for real interaction. I go to school once a week and the others ignore me. I go to my doctor's offices or anywhere else like court and I have to wait for hours for my ride. I don't know how much I can take of this without snapping.

I want to give up Goodwill and do volunteer work just to be around people who might just might be nice to me. My Rehab. counselor, psyh therapist, and Goodwill teacher put the pressure on me though to go to Goodwill as often as I can. I have so many physical ailments that either keep me at home or personal business to take care of.

I can't sleep anymore without taking sleeping pills. There's nothing to look forward to or get excited about. Life is just a big hassel and I'm just going through the emotions.

befuddled2

You sound ver depressed,
what does your therapist say>? are you taking an antidepressant?perhaps it needs a bit of tweeking.Being isolated is very hard to deal with, Is there a drop in center for you to go to during the day>?ours have informal gatherings and once a week there is a peer run support group for people to shre and porovide support to each other.what about a senior centeror a gym open classes or a class at a localschool are there any coffe shops that you like to get out and be around people and possibly have a conversation. some times I wonder around grocery sstores taking to produce guys meat count people practiceing communication with strangers. you are relearning alot and this will take practice...know that you are a gound woman with honest intentions.being kind and generous will get you far. learn an attitude of gratitude...gratful for your new life...a chance to start over and take care of your self.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Hi Bizi,

My psych therapist and rehab. counselor wants for me to go to Goodwill every day during the week all day except for when I have appointments with health care professionals. I don't like the attitude my physch therapist has taken that I need to do this so I can prove to Rehab. that I can work. My Domestic Violence counselor wants for me to go to a possible easier school if I can get in. She also wants to see me often where as the psych counselor thinks my schooling comes before my therapy with her. I cannot take anti-depressants because they make me manic.

befuddled2

Hi Befuddled,

Can you start exercising? Walking? That pulls me out of depression usually.

What people can you start talking to?
Can you volunteer?


I'm sorry you feel down right now.
Know that this feeling will pass.

Mari

The only antidepressant that I was able to take..they make me manic as well.....
was welbutrin.
and at a half dose.
I took this for about six months i think.
Even if it was just a placebo effect at the time I felt it helped.

I am voting for the easier schooling to start what do you think?
bizi

hi befuddled

just a quick note if you do decide to volunteer...

local nursing homes love to have people come in and just read to the residents. newspapers, magazines, books...

lil'monkey does it. she is 12. they don't ask for a schedule, just for her to call when she can come. she is also a singer and sings for them.

I am sorry you are lonely,
I wonder which is worse.....being alone and lonely like you....or being lonely with a houseful of people who treat me as a stick of furniture?????

I am sorry for both of you....

There's nothing worse in the world than feeling alone and I'm so sorry that you feel that way. I hope you are able to get out and walk or do something. It's no good to isolate yourself.

I understand the feeling of being alone in a room full of people. I am sorry you have to deal with that Junie.

Befuddled, love. I wish there were some way to help you feel better so you could do your school AND volunteer. So much to deal with right now. Stress is so hard on us all. I wish there was a way to shift some of that burden. Could you take some time off from school or would that dismiss you from the program?