Dear Waves,
 

I am impressed that you are holding it together with these great difficulties.


Yes. Pdoc is right. That is my strategy for keeping a job. I might fall down / drop a task, but I pretend to be stable. I have learned to keep up apperances --- even if doing so consumes most of the energy I expend at work.

A boss or two ago had possibly personality disorders. My team survived by trying to guess how many of her traits might pass the diagnostic threshold by a pdoc. She was not mean directly, but she was manipulative, selfish, and almost frightenly inconsistent. She would pick favorites, drop them, then pick new favorites.
By any chance do you think your field attracts folks with personality disorders than other fields do? I'm guessing that those people function to some degree in many jobs situations.

Of course you are worn out. Come home safely, keep yourself safe, and rest. Life will make more sense when you have a good boss.
Take care, Waves.
Have a good work week.
M.

yes waves have a good work week if you can.
bizi:hug:

Good to read you Waves even if things are not improved. I look forward to the weekend up date, and refuel you with love and support for the coming week.
Sending some hugs,
di:hug:

Di, Bizi, and Mari

thank you for the encouraging words.

Mari i have been thinking about how these 'disordered' ppl manage to claw their way up in businesses, while we disordered ppl get even more messed up dealing with them. i think with certain disorders or disturbances one can acquire specific adaptive skills at an early age... perhaps "skills" which, while 'functional' may not be very moral, by most of our standards here. Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by lack of empathy - now THAT certainly goes a long way if you need to step on ppl systematically and still "be ok" with yourself. There are other combinations which extend to sadism and other forms of abuse. i once found a nifty chart that compared various PDs in this sense... if i can find it again i will post - (it was nothing to do with DSM criteria).

i am not ready for the week but it helps that it is may 15th - sounds close to june 30. . 1.5 months left, or 7 weeks. even when i think 7 weeks UGH :eek::( it beats 7 months.

i meant to get on the job search this weekend but i just bummed around (and slept some).

:grouphug:

~ waves ~

Hey waves, glad to hear from you, I know work is awful, but you're sticking it out and I am proud of how you're doing your best. That's all anyone can ask. I know people like to say Let it roll off your back like water on a duck's back, but that's easier said then done. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, be well, and see the end in sight to this. Hopefully thinking about that and your NEXT employment position will help you get through this heck you're dealing with. :(