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Dear Steve

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Originally Posted by Brokenfriend (Post 811859)

Hi Waves. You are not(( Forever))((the))((oddball)). Those three words do not describe you. You are special. You are a true person of value,who has given so much to Neurotalk.

You are Forever the person with value,and worth,and are a very special person. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Oh my. i am without words. i read this and my heart skipped a beat. oh, not in a bad way, at all. just, like, wow. thank you. :o i don't know what really to say, but to say... thank you, i am so incredibly touched.

i am so grateful for your friendship and support, and besides that, you should know i too think you are special, and a dear precious soul. :hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Dear Waves. Thank you. (((Hugs))):hug::hug::hug:

coffee and donuts for night owls

thanks, Mari...

wow, got me feeling right at home for a moment there... thanks for the "escape to my former life!"

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~

Waves

((((HUGS))))) you can always have some HUGS.

We will give them to you as many as you need.

Donna:grouphug:

Awwwwww, (((((((Donna))))))) thank you. :o :hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

"Down" ... song by Jason Walker

"DOWN" BY JASON WALKER (YouTube)

Refrain:
I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this resonates with me and within me. the music and the words.

~ waves ~

Waves Please stay. I love you a lot. I am sorry what your parents say. My parents do that too. But we all love you and you inspire us here. You have pulled me out of some slumps through your postings and PM's. You have been a big supporter. It hurts to hear you feel like this because I care about you. I see so much life through you. Hugs and comfort come your way. I will pray for you.

Sharla:hug::grouphug::hug:

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Originally Posted by waves (Post 808023)

i don't how to go on any more.

i have a deathwish. i already feel dead inside.

i don't believe i would act on it because i'm afraid of success and failure:
--success because it would hurt my parents too much.
--failure because i could end up in worse conditions, with same deathwish.

i feel guilty for the deathwish. i believe in life but i can't seem to wrap myself around it any more.

objectively, i know i have so much more "going for me" than many do, despite the obstacles. but i can't seem to make any use of it.

i thought i knew how to walk around the proverbial pit, but here i am in it again.

thanks for listening anybody.

waves

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Originally Posted by waves (Post 813504)

I liked the video pretty pictures.
there is alot of love feelings in those pictures.
love to you dear waves.
((((HUGS))))
bizi