Thanks for clarifying Waves.

I didn't even go back to see what i had written. because it didn't matter.

I like the idea of you getting the help you need period. And I think talking to pdoc about your needs is a good idea. And just go for it, period.

Donna

Waves,

I probably would go to the same one that worked for me in the past and that has a pdoc I could request. So far you have a good plan.

The teaching will not be an option while in that particularly place. That's ok. I would value the pdoc over anything else. Your goal is to feel better. In your list of goals, teaching is probably third or so right now.


Choose the place convenient for you.

I try hard not to watch news. I occasionally record a morning talk show that mixes in news with political news. I watch the first fifteen minutes and then hit delete.
I have come to not care what happens in the world. If it is important enough someone will tell me.
The visuals and sounds are too much for me. I want my information in print. Sometimes I think about configuring my browser so that I don't accidentally come upon any visuals in yahoo when I am checking my email. Even non-upsetting visuals can throw me off.

I hope today is ok for you.

M

I bet this thing with your dad has you upset, I am sorry he can't trust you that you tested that theory before. Maybe a psyche community (like to live in temporarily) would be useful for you. Regardless of what you do though, I am thinking about you and wishing you well waves, hang in there!

adding more good thoughts and hugs to your day
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Waves. I'm so sorry for all of your problems. (((Hugs))) BF

thanks ((( everyone ))) for your support here.

i will post more later. i can't get my thoughts organized enough now. pdoc was helpful, and answered some questions about the communities. but i am still upset.

~ waves ~

wow waves, this is a huge step. write when you are able to share.
I am sorry this is so upsetting. Have you mentioned this to your folks yet?
just curious.
bizi

Oh waves, I am sorry your depression is worse. I have been following posts and not knowing what to say to you. I am here for you if you ever have a need. I care about what happens to you. I also need you and your wisdom that you share. I hope the meds. help you. I am on zoloft too and after three weeks, I feel better. I hope you feel better soon. that black room is no fun to be in. You are not alone. so many respond to you, you must know you are loved. ginnie

i am so glad the pdoc was helpful. i wonder if you can see him more frequently while you are going through this difficult period. I am afraid if you enter a community you will spend most of your time helping others and exhaust yourself. could your pdoc call your parents and tell them how fragile you are right now.? once you get into a certification program i am sure that your life will start feeling more stable and you will become less depressed.
you don't mention fear but that might be a big factor too....the unknown is so scarey to so many....that is why i keep on trying to work on faith...
love
bobby

these are wise words this morning bobby. (((HUGS))))
bizi