it has made it a lot easier and i don't cringe when i ask for a ticket and say hello. i still feel guilty though. I count the money i save and it is adding up and that makes me feel good. It has also lessened my food bill when i order food. I try to be very careful with my money. when my tv broke i thought of doing away with tv but i just couldn't do it yet. i felt too lonely.
bobby

oh have to have a tv for company.....
sorry that you tv broke. We have a radio shack that is at least 25 years old running great. bizi

i have been wanting to go to sleep at four o clock in the afternoon. I guess I am really depressed. this morning i go to my social worker. I will force myself to go. I don't feel like doing anything. I know i should start taking little walks and build up but i can't motivate myself. I just heard that the medicare increase in under four dollars and the cola increase is about forty dollars. the medicare increase was rumored to be 10 dollars. I should be so thankful. I am looking into ooma or magic jack. I could save a lot of money but it sounds like so much trouble. you have to wait a while until your old phone number works. I started taking another class with university without walls...conference calls where there is interaction...one of them is on gratitude. for homework every night you write down three things you are greatful for and then you also write somebody youare greatful for. It is sort of an offshoot of positive thinking. my life feels so empty even though now i am going to the senior center five days a week.
bobby

Dear Bobby,


That's good about the class over the phone. . . . interesting that people work on gratitude.

Do you feel like you have settled into the senior center? Has it become part of your day now or do you still have to expend great effort to think about going?

Good luck with the social worker.
M

I am happy that you are making an effort to go to the center daily...this is an effort and is getting you out of your apartment. You know that if you take a class at most universitys you can audit them with out a charge. so this is something you could do maybe next semester if the bus system works out convenient for the school.
I am glad that you are doing the grateful class on line. Do you like it?
You are making steps forward you really are. I wish you felt better about these efforts.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

i feel as if i have settled into the senior center. i am no longer on my diet. it is too hard to be on while going to the senior center and also i guess the deprivation caught up with me. two of the people i like a lot are leaving for florida soon. al is going to first have surgery for kidney cancer on nov 11. we talk a lot about current affairs. he is very talkative-always has something to say and has a positive nature. Mildred is also really neat and is eighty five but doesn't look it or act it unless she talks about her deceased husband.
bobby

i really liked the gratitude class although some of the people are more depressed than i am. auditing classes cost money up north...not cheap...also i have a hard time leaving my apartment. the senior center is across the street so that makes it easy.
bobby

Dear Bobby,
I feel good about your going to the senior center across the street to talk to Al and Mildred.
I like that you can do the gratitude class over the phone without having to go anywhere.
Keep doing what can work for you.

M

thank you very much Mari-
I am a mass of worries but when i go to the senior center they seem to disappear when i am there. it is when i am alone. also i am taking another class at dorotusa.before it was on the torah and was very interesting. on wednesday it is going to be on Jewish Mysticism with the same teacher. I am looking forward to that.
bobby

At your senior center, do they offer other things
that you might be interested in doing?
happy that you are going and that it is a great distraction from your worries, some relief from that which sounds exhausting.
bizi