I'm so glad that you won. BF

Aw Bizi silly immune system.... i know I hate mine....

Im not brave, I indeed think Im stupid for doing things alone all the time.... Like I push myself to do it to try to avoid depression you kniw ? But I always end depressed anyway and just get very anxious doing efforts like going to this thigs

In resume, my life sucks and is a mess.... i dont even know what I really like and what is just.... Too much effort....

Hi blue mojo, you are not alone. You have us, and people who really do care about you. I was abandoned by my own family, so I know about being alone too. However I found a new family, right here, who responds to me when I need help. You can't pick your family, but friends are different, you have a choice. You really do have some friends, ginnie

after my trip I know how you feel (am inclined to say exactly). I am so sorry you're like in a second level depression as a result of your trip.
I push myself too for the same reason & also end up even more depressed. I was driving over 500 miles some days & not eating ...
Don't know why we do these things ...

(((ginnie)))
I hate to meet cruel people in my life... Im too weak you know... Like, yeah, my self-steem is null and, I cant handle this solitude/ rejections

(((BCG)))
Yeah... Why do we do this things !? I feel like I fight or, give much for "nothing"... I wish I could change my character...

I know about self esteem taking a nose dive blue mojo. When people you love turn their backs, it can be devistating to your whole body. There is alot of cruelty out there, and it is mostly by selfish individuals. They have not learned about compassion. When we are in pain, it seems to me the people on these sites reach out with compassion because we have learned it by our own sorrow. We feel the pain of others, and that makes us much more human.I would rather have to deal with my depression, than be one of the cold and uncaring people who hurt us. Maybe out of pain, we learn to love each other. I feel blessed to have met the people here who understand me. Take care of yourself, be kind to others, that for sure is the better way to be. ginnie

I personally think you dodged a bullet, not having your picture taken with him. I think he is the one who stinks. Puwwee.


I think you are a great person, and I wish you had thought to ask the other two in the band to get a picture with you.

Donna

Dear Donna,

i indeed got pics with the otger 2 memers but, everybody
, well, not everybody but some "friends" and my mom were saying that my pics suck They know hoe to make me feel bad, depressed and rejected.... sniff sniff.... I feel like all my effort and excitement were nit worth it...

Phyllis

Thanks......