Well I am getting ready to start dinner, we're having ham and taters and veggies. I might make a cherry pie, I am not sure though, depends on if I am motivated in a half an hour to make it or not. LOL!

Hope everyone's having a great holiday weekend! I am feeling pretty good, just a little tired because I stayed up late last night. Hehehe. Paying for it today though.

Hi Bizi,
When I saw them at their place last summer I was miserable and had a truly horrible time with them (mostly w/my father).
They know that I have no intention of ever visiting them again.

So my father decided that they would come here on Labor Day weekend in Sept.
They always stay at hotels when they visit people because my mom doesn't like to deal with people and my father is used to her needs.

He has already started telling me what restaurants he wants to go to and which beach they might go to.

I might look around for a hotel for them. Hubby and I live in the suburbs -- not big hotel places.

The upcoming visit will be ok if I try not to worry about it.
M.

Dear Pam,
We don't celebrate Easter because hubby is Muslim and I am a former Catholic. Today is a regular day to go for a walk and catch up on laundry.

Your plans for dinner sound nice.
Happy Easter.
M.

Dear Justice,

Shitzu dogs are so sweet and adorable.

Most of us stay on our meds. But some people can go off them or reduce after being stable for a long time (years and years).

M.

Thanks for the hug! I didn't go to church today, we never go because I feel it's too hard on Jackie so we've not ever tried it, he doesn't do well in big gatherings and he can't be expected to sti still for longer then five minutes...Hehehehe, but we do the dinner up nice enough. Well I am off to get cooking!

I hope everyone is enjoying their Easter holiday. I’ve been in a very bad way this past week or so. I’ve been almost climbing the walls, literally. This has been the worse mania I’ve ever had. I can’t stop my mind or my body. I’m totally exhausted but can’t sleep. I’m working, working, working at work and then come home and clean and clean. I saw my pdoc and she said we have to try something else because I need to come down and come down now. She wanted to put me into the hospital for my own sake but I told her I can’t because I’d lose my job. So my new wonder cocktail is Lithium and Risperdal.

I’ve been dreading the thought of taking Lithium but I knew it was coming. So many side effects and blood tests. But I know this is my only hope and I’m losing hope that I’ll ever see my way out of this. I want this to work, I want to get better. I want some semblance of order, not chaos in my life. I want sleep. My pdoc finally agrees with me that I’m worth working with. She said I have too much stress in my life and I agree totally. But there’s nothing I can do about that. It’s my job, but without it I’d lose everything I worked so hard for. I can make this work, I have to.

I did not get out to church..I was up so late last minute things, and cleaning.
It was so sureal not having DeAnne here, looking forward to the ham, mashed potatoes and corn.....
Also her Apple Pies! She made the best apple crumb topping with grahm cracker crust. I never wrot the recipe down.

I took flowers down, my oldest son too. I also have a statue of a little girl with kitty;s climbing on her lap also, she loved her Kitty's.

I miss her so much and the holidays are tough..subdued, a tightness to get through.
My grandson did have a great day as did my 11 yr old. She loves the little things in the basket, like lip gloss and books.

Hope ever one had the best day they could,
Love
Dianne

Holidays can be very stressful,
they bring up memeories of loved ones lost....
they also can bring up not so good memories...
and a time to create new memories and traditions.
I am glad that we can come together here and be supportive.
Mebp? I hope that the risperdal brings you some sleep tonight.
Di, I knew this would be a hard holiday for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Me BP,

Lithium works. Maybe you'll get the relief you need.
I hope that you find a way to make work less stressful.
I'm working on work too -- if that makes any sense.

M.

Dear DiMarie.

You are making new memories for the little ones.

And you have good memories of De to hold onto.
Mari