I heard something on the news that caused me to go into depression/fear,and after about 8 hours of emotional pain,I felt like the muscles in my chest where sore,and I could no longer think about what was worrying me.

I may have been obsessively thinking in fear,but it blew up in my thoughts,and I couldn't stop thinking about it. It was like a 8 hour panic type of condition. I felt this deep depression with it. I felt like I was on the edge of the world,about to fall off.

I hate this kind of thing. I haven't felt quite like this in a while. I've had more depression/loneliness,and anxiety recently. I've had more dread about small things also.

I hope that this isn't the start of periods of time like this. I've had weeks,and months of this over many years. This makes me feel like burying my face on my pillow.

I know there is no easy fix it to this. I talked to my counsellor about how I was feeling about two weeks ago,and she said call her when I get depressed. I can't call her now because it is a late Saturday night,early Sunday morning problem.

This type of feeling scares me the most,and it makes me feel powerless at the time. I remember that the first time that this type of thing happened was when I was about 13. My parents said that I was obsessing(They didn't know what the term was,or what it was)over something when I was about 5,or 6,and I didn't stop,so I got a spanking.

I don't understand this,and I'm so tired of it. BF

Dear Friend,


Lots and lots of hugs.

Do you have any extra meds that the pdoc has suggested to take in times like this?

I hope that you can sleep so you feel better by tomorrow.

M

maybe you can call her in the morning? that might help with your anxiety?????
(((((HUGS))))) to you tonight.
bizi

Thank you Bizi. I could always call the em. number at the regional network that helps me this morning. My counsellor would not be at her office till Monday. Thank you anyway.

I just hope that this isn't the start up of months,or years of this illness,battling it continually. That confuses,and where's out everyone around me,and myself. When it amplifies like this,I realize I'm so tired of this. I've been through worse. BF

Dear Friend,

Allow the NP Med manager the information she needs to help you. Talk to her.

A lot of us have to adjust our medications every so often.

Please take care of yourself.

M

Steve

Please take the time to call tomorrow. Get some help.

Its something that has to be done every once in a while.

Donna

Mari Thanks for the hugs. The NP Med. Manager hasn't allowed any more medications for use. She doesn't know that my condition has gotten worse. The cloud of fear has let up some. I just took the 600 Mg's of seroquel. I took my other medications about an hour ago.

I noticed I talked to others,and then I talked about myself in the same post's recently. I've been trying to hold back my condition,but ended up posting some of my feelings when posting to others. BF