thank you for the warm welcome. i've slept and i feel better. missed some meds some because samples from doc and some because of money. so i did a lot of thinknig last nigh and realized i still have alot of issues i need to deal with as far as accepting bipolar dx. sometimes the manic times i feel overly fine thoughts racing and feelings put in the back part of my mind. and when i am down like yesterday i feel what i havn't been feling for weeks or days like pent up emotions. and then they just all come out at once. my poor husband dosn't know if i am comming or going sometimes. do any of you experience parrinoia (sp)? with bipolar? i worry about my husband with out warrent i think i project my worst behaviors and fears on him. like he might be as shallow as i am. when i know he's not. he just works all the time and i miss him. he works toafford everything for me and the girls my three daughters. he's a great guy grew up in an alchohlic home and never would leave even if the worst would happen between us. wow ok personal. but yet i still worry. paranoia will destroy you. shoud probably see my new therapist sometime soon. i put her off. like i can fix my self. i almost have a psyc degree. i am my own worst enamy (sp)?. when i am down i love to write though the one thing that purges my soul. i am usually more up than down like i said manic. i love to shop. even if we don't have much it helps me feel better? anyone else? well i am 32 on many meds like i said. off and on. most of my problem. married 11 yrs this april 20th. to a wonderful man. i had surg in feb and he took 1 month off work to stay home and take care of me. sweet! i ahve thre girls ages 5-10. my youngest is just about to start grade k. my oldest is in fourth grade. my mid is in 1st grade. well enough for now have a great day-shelly

thank you for sharing with us!
You have a busy life raising 3 children the last one almost in school, what are your plans then? Are you still in school yourself?
I thinkk going to see your therapist is an excellant idea!
schedule as soon as you can...you are worth this!
bizi

Third times a charm. That's how many times I have tried to post in your Hello!!

sigh.

Hi! Nice to meet you. I am sure I have read a few of your post here before but wanted to officially say welcome.

3 Girls under 10. Whoa Nelly, that's a lot of work. Your hubby sounds like a keeper. Sounds like a gentle, kind soul, full of love and hope. Makes a difference, doesn't it?

Sometimes I feel like I am earning my psyc degree just by being alive. LOL. I would be curious how many professionals in the field have their own monsters to contain? Interesting....

So very nice to have you with us. Thank you for posting and sharing your life with us.

thanks for the hellos. yes i plan on finishing school. hopefull as soon as my littlest one gets to a full time class room.. today is better i told my husband i wanted to go see my therapist again and he was good with it. i knew he would be but money is tight.. so what's new. how long have the two of you been here? and what are you symptoms like? anything like me? my friend and neighbor is going through a nasty reconciliation(sp) of her marriage. they split and now they are trying to work it out. it affects me though being involved daily in something negative.. don't get me wrong love her, but drama. so it makes me more parinoid about nothing. funny ha. bye-shelly

Hi,
Just thinking of you. How are you doing today?

Nikko

doing ok cleaning house i worked out this morning always helps me feel a little better. all but one kid is at school. and she's not hard to handle at all loves barbies. she's 5. so me meds are all on board. little tired from yesterday. took are of the kids by my self tony works all weekend sometimes. so did the church thing. lots of hugs and hellos. did you hear abou the shooting in virginia? how sad, but glad my kids are not in college yet. not ready for them to be too far away from me. other then that feel emtionless. probably not a great thing just hanging out. we have a beautiful day her 60's but windy. no rain thank goodness tired of rain. yes dogs rule.-shelly

Dear Shelly,
Glad that you decided to seek some therapy again, this is a lot to handle and you do have the extra responsibility of your children.
I don't have any kiddos just a hubby and 2 cats.
have been diagnosed bipolar 1 for 12 years I think, on meds most of that time. have been posting on this site and the old one for many years.
It has been a big support to me. These are great folks to have on your side.
(((HUGS))))
bizi