[Brokenfriend]

Last Thursday I went to my Nurse Practitioner,and I seemed to have rambled on,and on,and on. I may have made her angry,because she stopped the session suddenly,and didn't talk to me very much at the end of session. I called,and tried to leave a apology. I called again,and talked to her receptionist. The receptionist didn't seem to care,but I was serious. I didn't want to hurt our Therapist,to patient relationship. I may be over reacting.

She tried to tell me that I needed a trauma therapist,and I said that I didn't think that I needed one. I said that I had one before. Actually he was a Psychologist,and wasn't helpful.

She's right. I think that I need a trauma therapist. I have allot of trauma that is not disappearing,and I don't seem to be getting over some of these times when I went though traumatic experiences.

I've had a hard time in the last two weeks. Actually I've been sliding down for two months,but I'll be O K. I've been through much worse believe me.

I'm concerned about my Nurse Practitioners response to my rambling on Thursday. I did allot of rambling. I hope that I didn't cause any damage,because I wasn't listening when she tried to speak.

She wants to see me in a month. We usually see each other every two months. What I need to do is" not talk" when she's trying to help me.

I don't know anything about Trauma Therapists actually. BF