Thank you! She committed suicide February 6th of this year. I'm happy for her that her battle with depression and addiction are over, but I miss her. I am looking forward to giving her a great big hug in heaven and hearing her laugh again. She had a great laugh and could always make me laugh, no matter what.

Though I still can't believe it's real at times.

I hope you make it to your meeting tomorrow! And that you are able to decrease back down if that's what you need.

dear butterfly, This will be a hard christmas with out your best friend. I am sorry for you.
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bizi

I'm sorry about this to...But you have us Butterfly. BF

Hi Mari That's both scary,and aggravating when you have a difficult time in synchronizing a medicine to be helpful,and not harmful. I hope that you figure out what dose is best for you. I hope that Tuesday goes well for you. BF

This is the same problem I have had with other medications -- The dose I take does not help. When I raise the dose, the side affects are difficult. I am sticking at the 400 until I no longer feel stoned. My goal is to get to 600 so I can evaluate if the med is helping for nerve pain and anxiety.

M

I am afraid to go to bed more than I usually am. I do not know what is happening.

I want to avoid dealing with the bed. Maybe it is too much trouble to brush teeth, wash a little, put on bed clothes, check this, check that, write notes to myself about what I have to do tomorrow.
. . find ANY WAY I can to distract my self and find something to do other than go to bed.


I am sooo totally losing it. I am not o.k.


M

Mari It sounds like fear,and obsessive mental activities combined. Checking things can go hay wire in the mind.

My ocd was getting worse when I checked things in my wallet,then it exploded into other obsessions about all kinds of things. I would think about something,and it would become a large problem in my mind,and distort in my mind.

I have a digital recording device with 18 worries/burdens recorded in it. I actually have 2 of these recording devices. If it's something that needs to be taken care of very soon,I write out a note,and tape it to the computer monitor.

Mari. The things we go through. Good luck at this meeting. Whatever happens,you will get through this. BF

I think you are experiencing the end of semester anxiety, trying to finish up, get things done, ...just my thoughts. sorry that you are not well. I wish you would take yourself or go with a girl friend to the beach.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I am really sorry that you are having so much truble with your meds,and I hope that you start feeling better soon,with out sleep you don't funchion well or think stright.I really hope that things start going better for you