Originally Posted by Brokenfriend (Post 940097)

Waves. I also had a terrible combination of devastating emotions when I was 29,or 30. They sent me to the psych ward in a regular hospital. When I got there they took me off of all my medications cold turkey,and thought that they would treat me in a different way. What part of taking the Valium,Ativan class of meds for 10 years did they not understand.

I couldn't sleep for a couple of nights,and then I had a seizure. What part of withdrawals did they not understand. They put me right back on my medication. I liked the patients,but the staff didn't know what they where doing with me. This was one of many horrible experiences in my life that I can't undo. It was just a horribly painful experience that I had with no closure. I found those records in micro-file tapes from the medical records department at that hospital recently.

I don't recommend a hospital psych ward to anyone. ANYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would recommend a Social Services Wellness Center. I had a good experience at one of these a couple of years ago.
BF:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::hug::hug::hug:

Originally Posted by waves (Post 940053)

i had a prolonged hypomania (or mild mania) at 17 when i was sophomore in college (young due to changed school systems, good grades). then at 18 i had the longest and weirdest manic episode probably in my life. i only had a mild depression/anxiety in between.

i graduated but decided to go back to a different university to study CS (a practical field). at 20 the first of several long and crippling depressions hit. i got the BS by the skin of my teeth leaving a trail of regret for a couple of classes i know i would have enjoyed if i could have got myself to them, and a host exasperated and bewildered professors who seeing my ability, were kind enough to give me help and second chances... with inexplicably absent results.

subsequently i worked and managed to run the gauntlet between highs and lows until around age 30 when i had a terrible crash, saw a therapist who sent me to a pdoc who finally dx'd and treated me.

i knew what manic depression and bipolar was but it had never occurred to me that i had it... until i read a couple of books by Kay Redfield Jamison... esp. An Unquiet Mind...

~ waves ~

Originally Posted by katmae (Post 940156)

Good morning Butterfly,I was not on line all weekend and was just reading all the new posts,my Bi-polar started for my as a young child do to things that happend to me from a very young age,but got much werse after the birth of my first child at 16,that is also when my first husband started to fisacaly abusive,I hope that you had a nice weekend have a grate day:hug::hug:

Originally Posted by butterfly11 (Post 940215)

I can't believe you had seizure because of their incompetence!

Originally Posted by butterfly11 (Post 940210)

thank you everyone for sharing your experiences :Heart: We are all different, yet the same. We have had different experiences yet arrived at the same place.

waves, BF, and katmae - I am sorry for your pain. I wish I could undo it. :Heart:

Originally Posted by Mari (Post 940237)

I worry about being on benzos and being in a wild, hard to plan situation where I cannot be on my medications.
It is frightening so I try not to think about it.

Originally Posted by Mari (Post 940237)

I also do not like to travel because I am not around my stuff and my routine and I cannot predict what is going on.