I am exhausted, yet I sleep more, although I still wake up once or twice a night.

My mom is okay. I need some down time from Mike, I need to express that to him. Plus his drinking until he goes to bed is bothering me, I know because he calls me, and I can tell. I want to spend more time with my friends, not always with his friends, which I think I got that point across.

It seems that there is always something I have to do, either housework, cooking, taking my mom someplace, Dr appt's, errands, etc.

I want a day just by myself, not in the house either. During the week at the pool would be perfect nobody is there, but it just doesn't happen, or my mom would want to go with me. Even her constant talking is driving me up a wall.

The phone ringing bothers me, I don't feel like talking to anyone.

I can feel the anxiety inside me from the moment I wake up. I feel the stress that surrounds me.

Guess I just needed to vent. Feeling weird, just sick of everything. I just want one stinking day alone.

Nikko

((((((Nikko)))))),

I was just looking at 'stuff" on my computer while I'm waiting for it to rebuild. Microsoft barfed all over its shoes again

Thought of you when I read this:

BIG HUGS (and love).

Barb

Nikko...that isn't asking too much. Treat yourself to a day away. You deserve that and more.

Dear Nikko,
I am glad that youwere able to talk to Mike.
You guys have not been dating that long....hopefu;lly he will respect your wishes.
I find the bathroom is my solice, if I need to get away form the world then I take a long shower, do my nails, pluck my eye brows and hang out in there for a couple of hours coming out rejuvinated...I know that sounds weird but it is called privacy...and I think this is what you are craving...
just a though
I am thinking of you today.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thank you all.

Just a rough week, Monday was the Surgeon for my mom, then out to lunch. She ordered drinks, I couldn't stop that or there would of been a scene. PLus I know people there.

Tuesday she wanted to go shopping, then out to lunch. She ordered drinks. I also know people at this place too.

Today she has an appt. for a perm, and I need to do grocery shopping.

Anyway, maybe tomorrow, I will just go to the pool alone and have some down time.

I sooooooooooooooooo crave it. Yet, I need to do laundry and catch up on things around the house that I haven't been able to get to this week.

Welcome to my world. I guess I am just having a "caregiver" breakdown.

Hugs, Nikko

I love poems.......


Nikko

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh it's Thursday, just got back from grocery shopping, fun fun fun.....the laundry is in the dryer.

Now, to change my mom's room around and put her new bed in a bag on.

Then vacuum and wash the kitchen floor.

So, I think maybe tomorrow is my day, I keep saying that, so I keep hoping.

Then what to cook...hmmmmmmmmmmmm forgot to get mescuite/charcoal for the grill......I always forget things when I go to the supermarket, even with a list!!!! Duh on me.

Okay, got to get my butt in gear again - here I go again.....LOL

Hugs, Nikko

Hi Nikko,

I forgot charcoal myself for the grill, I meant to get it but I forgot. It's so easy to do that, I like to write lists but sometimes I am in a hurry and forget to write one. LOL!

I agree with the others though, you deserve a day to yourself.