my current psychiatrist just dropped me. he is switching offices....i came in and said i was anxious about jury duty(he wrote a letter for me to get off of it) and told him i was anxious that he would drop me when he moved. he said no he was taking me with him. as the session progressed he changed his mind and implied that i needed more care than just seeing a psychiatrist. he told me to go to metropolitan hospital for their psy clinic which has psychologists, social workers and psychiatrists. i said i didn't want to go there. i said the last therapist i went to I viewed as a punishment because she didn't help me even though she was a nice lady.
I called and left a message with Dr.Moussavian to see if he had an opening at his office on the west side in the seventies. he told me before he was there only once a week.
i am still in shock......
bobby

oh Bobby

i'm so sorry this is happening! i don't even know what to say. that sounds awful what he did.

i wonder if Dr. Moussavian will be able to fit you in that one day per week with enough advance booking. but i don't know do you really want to go back to Dr. M ... he had become very complacent with your meds i thought.

what about, can your GP keep writing your scripts in the meantime? if necessary maybe the the most recent pdoc should be able to provide a simple document for the GP with all your meds and dosages - until you find someone new... it might take time to look. maybe you could talk to your GP ... maybe she could even recommend someone and/or get you in soon.

lots of love and ((( BIG HUGS )))

waves

hi
he wrote me enough for two months. i looked at the medicare list of psychiatrists that are accepting new patients in my area. I will give dr.m. a few days to respond. i dont know if he will like that i am off topamax and on 300 welbutrin. i am really in a funk and up in the air.
love
bobby
ps you are right about the ambivalence....

Bobby

Sending you good thoughts.

Donna

I'm sorry Bobby. I'm sending hugs your way. BF

my anxiety is through the roof right now. I wonder if dr.m. can see me and when he will call me back. I have three other names to call. I really don't want to go to metropolitan hospital's clinic

Bobby, can you call the other three names?

Mari

Dear Bobby

I think it's great that you already went through the list and took those names down. try to soothe yourself. maybe tomorrow you can call one of them.

given your ambivalence, i personally think it would be better to leave Dr M. for last... my thought is suppose you met one of the other docs and want to give them a chance... it may work out or it may not, but if it does it could be very helpful.

if you went to Dr M, and then for whatever reason, left again and then the new person didn't work, i'd be afraid your options to see Dr. M would be burned at that point - most docs would not allow a person to "yoyo" back and forth. if possibilities are exhausted, then going back to Dr. M makes sense... if you think you can deal with the availability issues on top of the complacency.

If you feel most comfortable seeing Dr M for now, one way I can see to do this is to ask him upfront if he can "help you out temporarily" while you find someone more accessible. You can be totally honest and tell him you are scared. I mean I'd be having horrible feelings of abandonment from what happened - and that turnabout all in one session! He knows you left him because of accessibility issues, so if you put it as needing a hand in the interim, it wouldn't be like running back to him. Then all the cards are on the table. If you end up wanting to stay with him... that could happen. But if you didn't, it would not rule out his helping you out in the future if need be.

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regarding the meds, Dr M may not have made the same choices the other doc did but he will respect your regimen as part and parcel of your working with a different professional - with different ideas. it's not like you "disobeyed' him. i don't even think he will necessarily try to put you back on, if your feedback about the changes made is positive.

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do something good for yourself tonight. maybe have a scented bubblebath or brush Pudge and close your eyes and feel her fur against your skin. anything to try and take the tension down. tomorrow you can step up to the plate again. you did very well today.

lots of love

waves

oh bobby,
I am so sorry.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Bobby,

I am sorry that you are going through this.
He is not a good man.
It does seem he straightened out your meds a bit and that is something. But he should be looking after your interests. In the end, I believe things will turn out such that this terrible thing he did turns out to be a good thing for you.

You are strong. You will be able to work this out and be in very good shape soon. Keep faith that you can handle the steps it takes to find a new pdoc.


M