This sounds all very stressful. I hope you are able to get some rest tonight and that your side effects are some what lessened.
just in case you need a hug tonight.
(((((HUG))))
bizi

The paresthesia has diminished since last night /Sunday.
I took 50 mgs around 9:30 with my other meds.

Mari

This is good news! Hopefully it will clear up completely soon.
Alright! You are being a very good patient! :)

I too hope you get some good rest tonight. :Zzzz:

:hug::hug:

waves

Shoot. I cannot remember. I probably took 25 and will check tomorrow to see if me pill minder gives me clues for sure.

It's alright, Mari.

It isn't too important if it was 50 or 25 tonight. Important for the paresthesia to resolve completely right now.

Tomorrow see how you feel and take 50mg then if you are ok.

waves

I awakened this morning feeling horrible because of dull head from Lamictal determined to find a new psychiatrist.

It was busy the whole day and only got to the phone until late.
I called the insurance company. Then I called one potential pdoc a minute after 5:00. The message requested that I leave a name and number in order to get a call back re an appointment.
I did.

I will keep my phone on tomorrow and tell people a head of time that I am expecting an important call.

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I need a supportive pdoc. . . .someone who is on my side . .. my team. . .
This current pdoc probably is watching out for me in his own way . . . but I do not feel it.

Mari

You did great, Mari. :Heart:

I hope you get a prompt call back, and that this next pdoc is a keeper.

I understand what you are saying about the current guy.

:hug::hug:

waves

Mari

You are doing a great job. Keep it up.

I think you will work through this.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

I am sorry that lamictal is not working out for you.:(
hoping that the new pdoc calls you tomorrow.
bizi

It's bad enough being sick with these problems that we have,and then have to pay for the treatment,and medications. The insurance companies don't want to pay.

It's like this. It's not a vacation that we need the insurance companies for,it's needing the money to pay the doctors,and etc. because we are suffering.

The insurance companies caused me to loose my Allergy shot's,and treatment a while back. I had a allergy attack early this morning. I cleaned some Ionic breezes,and Pro's,and Air Conditioning filters. I cleaned the floors too. BF:hug::hug::hug:

sorry steve for your allergy attack. sounds like you over did it with the cleaning?
bizi

Hey Steve,

I am sorry you lost allergy treatment d/t insurance hassles. That is hated.

It is almost impossible not to be exposed to airborne allergens... to some extent. :( I hope getting the air purifiers and the floors cleaned helps some, although I get the impression you always keep your place pretty clean.

I hope you're feeling better, anyway. :hug::hug::hug:

waves

Hey Waves. Yes. There are to many air born allergens that are various sizes. The hepa filters cannot filter the smaller allergens. Air purifiers help a little. Along with the Ionic devices,I also have hepa filter devises in my den,kitchen,and bed rooms. I even have UV germ killing devices.They are all running now except for one which is near my shower which I'm about to get in. I smell odors from the other apartments,and two businesses in the building.

The only way that I can get away from the allergens is to get into a hazmat suit,with respirators,or oxygen.:laugh: BF:hug::hug::hug:

LOL... yeahhh, sometimes, I'd like to have access to a cleanroom -- you know, those super everything-free environments they use for manufacturing of semiconductors, medical products, etc. :D :hug::hug::hug:
waves

Sorry to read this Steve, horrid life with the allergens. I recently read about putting something in the nose that catches the micro allergens. Wish I could remember what it was?
Feel better,
Di :hug:

how are you mari, did the new pdoc call you?
bizi

Bizi,

Yes, the office called in late morning but I turned my phone off and missed it because work was soo soo busy.
I can call Thursday.
Mari

good news@!
bizi

Wild and busy day. Kicking heads and taking names.
 

Hi,

With almost no sleep I got energetic.
I straightened out the communication between the library and IT and got all the printers working so that library staff could take care of other more important stuff for me. :trampoline:


Then I led my own students through steps that required them to keep open three or four windows/tabs while I worked with them in the library's computer lab.
I was quick and cheerful and witty and insightful without being obnoxious. :p

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When I got home around 8:00 pm hubby was subdued!! :eek: :cool: :D
He was quiet. :) :) :)
He told me had seen an ophthalmologist that his optometrist had recommended two weeks ago.
He had a tiny procedure that freaked him out even in in the re-telling and seemed to be spent. No energy.

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We were a pair.
I should have taken extra Klonopin.
I have not come down from the day. :Dancing-Chilli:
He is sleeping. :Zzzz:

Mari

happy that you had a very productive day!
good for you, maybe rest today?
I hope so.
bizi

I am glad you had a good day yesterday, Mari!

You sound really upbeat here. :)

waves

bipolar depression and everything else
 

Hi all, reading thru some of your posts and getting to know you all a little better, and doing a lot of relating, while lurking. I wish everyone the best w their BP and other issues, and a Happy Labor Day weekend! I am very happy to be here on NT!:D

wishing you a happy labor day weekend to you to anne
bizi

feeling okay
 

Hi,

I have been taking 25 mgs for the past nine nights -- August 25-Sept 1.

I seem to be not depressed. Somewhat energetic. Feeling almost capable.
Still very fragile and being very protective of myself --- limit contact with people as much as possible, watching only very safe television, limit where I drive, . ..
Sleep is a mess.

I still really hate the side effects of the drugged feeling and spent most of Sunday sleeping off and on throughout the day until 5:00 pm or so.

I pray to God that I can get an appointment with a new pdoc before I need to see current pdoc again.

My best guess of summary of Lamictal:
17.5 mgs July 19 -July 20
25 mgs July 21 - August 1
37.5 mgs August 2 - 3
50 mg August 4 - August 23
75 mgs August 24 (Paresthesia appeared almost 24 hours after that dose and took 48 hours to subside.)
25 mgs August 25 - September 1

Mari

.
I hope you get to do something that you enjoy for labor day.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thank you, Bizi.

You have a good eye.

M

Hard and not fair
 

Mari!

I am glad you had a good day or two. I just got off Lamictal when I got on Latuda. I seem to have more clarity. I am still a angry if set off. I feel pretty normal but then I wonder if I did/said anything in appropriate while I was feeling so normal. I know I will probably fall into a slump post retirement and it won't be all rainbows and sunshine.

The hard and not fair part is that we have to fight to get appts, straighten things out administratively which I loathe, and so many docs dole out scripts hoping for the best but the process is so long to find the right one all the while I don't feel coherent on some of the Meds.

Just wanted to identify w you. Good luck with the process.

TBI,

Thanks. That is it exactly.
It feels like so much work to get appointments, pay attention to what the doc says on the 'scripts to make sure he /she gets it right, . . . . and so on.

Mari

HI,

I have an appointment with a new pdoc ten minutes from my place on Sept 24 11:15.

The week before I have to see the old pdoc on Sept 17.
He thinks I am taking 25 mgs Lamictal.
(When I had paresthesia after one dose of 75, his office told me to go down from 75 to 50.

He keeps asking me about a tdoc. The last time I saw him, he said to bring in the insurance list so we could go through the tdoc's together.

I cannot post pone his appointment. I think I need him to refill my scripts, . .. . but I will check with the pharmacy.

Mari

I do not have time for two pdocs
 

:hissyfit: :Trapeze 2:
I have tons of responsibilities at work right now and do not have time for two pdoc appts in the same two weeks.

:Sigh: :Red eyes: :rain:


Mari

your scripts will run out before the next week?
bizi
sorry it is crazy at work, it is for jeff too.

Hoping this new doctor can find the answers for you.

I would just tell the old pdoc that you forgot the list.

I can't answer the problem with the two appts in a week.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Good luck with this new doctor, Mari. :hug::hug::hug:

I wonder if you have enough meds to get by. Maybe the pharmacy will have good news.

waves

sleep doctor was a darling
 

Hi,

I drove 30 miles and back to see my sleep doctor (60 miles).
(Why are my docs so far away? :confused: I live in a suburban metropolis.:mad: )

He was very nice. :heartthrob:
He probably spent 25-30 mins with me.

I love that he did not have a 1-10 (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10) question for me.

He asked me how Alert I was:
How is your alertness?
~good
~fair
~poor

I said poor. He asked a second question using the same scale. I am going to try to find a reason to use that scale at work tomorrow because it is wonderful. And if I use it, I will remember it.

I told him my anxiety is much worse than my depression.
He remarked that the anxiety explains why I was contained/ or something I forget.
I think he noticed that I was freaked out but trying to hold everything together.
(I got lost in the parking garage and needed to call his staff for directions to the office from the garage . . . do not think he knew that.)

prescriptions
 

Regarding enough meds to reschedule / postpone:
I probably have enough because three hours ago I picked up
~Verapamil
~Klonopin -- he wrote it slightly different
~Gabapentin

I probably have the Lamictal I need (because he probably scripted for 75 and I am taking 25) except I am not ahead on Verapamil and I am confused today ESP about the Klonopin and will not be making decisions until I get my head together.

I might need to go up to 50 on the Lamictal --- I am in low mood.


Mari

I hope that you are able to understand you stance on your klonipin, that being the most important med you have...IMO.
hope things become clearer for you and that your mood lifts. maybe the 50mg is a good idea?
bizi

Mari

Good luck if you should decide to try going up on the lamictal.
Could I suggest you wait till at least Thursday night if not Friday night.

I'm not sure which would be better for you incase you have problems.

I also believe that you can think about maybe calling the first doctor
and rescheduling for after the other doctor if you find this one isn't
one you like.

I hope its one you like. Especially if closer.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

3:30 meeting went untold
 

I am in a very long meeting and doing the best I can not to do something wildly appropriate. So far i have limited mysel to rolling my eyes and grimacing and taking bathroom breaks.
I am as anxious as I have ever been.
'Could use a nap before I try to drive home.

Meeting from 3:30- 6:00. Argh. !!!!???!!!??
 

I cannot edit much on my phone . . . I meant to use a different title on the last message
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I am tired and feeling crazy. The good news is that traffic has cleared out enough for me to drive home on quiet enough roads. I am trying to gather strength for that by listening to Guns N Roses before I go down to the car.
'Work tomorrow . . . do not feel like coming back here.

Sorry you are having so much trouble with this.

Hoping you can get some rest.

Donna :hug::grouphug: