I am so sorry that this is so hard for you.
Will you be able to call your pdoc in the morning....they will probably be closed after noon like most doctors offices are.
I believe in you.
you can do this.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Bizi,

Right. He used to work afternoons only on Thursdays. His schedule has changed now that he also works at the state mental hospital some mornings.

I do not know if he and I can connect on the phone Friday.
I will be sleeping in the morning.
He might call late morning or right after 12:00 --- but during that time I will be in the appt with the therapist.

Oh, God. I hope she is a nice person.
I feel so much stress right now.
I do not know how it is that I have deteriorated so much.

Mari

Waves,

Hubby could do the measuring if he understood the stakes involved in getting it wrong. He is sloppy unless he feels something is important. Most of the time, things outside of his sphere are not important.
Maybe I could teach him and then supervise. Gah! That would all be so stressful but as you point out it would only be for a few days.

Most likely I will make an appt to talk to the pdoc about the meds options. He and I have gone through most of the SSRIs already. Because I was on Lexapro at 10 mgs per day for three days and did not experience paresthesia, I am willing to re-consider it at tiny doses.

And what happens is that the depression makes thinks worse. Even when I was not as depressed as I am now, I was depressed enough to feel completely lost when the side effects kicked in before the benefit kicked in. I would usually have to stop the side effects (and thus the med) in order to be able to get up in the morning and function at work. Right now, I have some space in time to try meds. I hope I am up to dealing with them.

In my 20s I was brave despite the depression and had trust in myself and the system. I feel knocked down now.
I wonder if pdoc would prescribe Srattera (an NRI) in tiny doses. (I know it is sometimes used off label.) The stuff in the sample pack mdoc gave me is in huge doses.

Yes. I understand.

(My writing/typing/thinking is off these days. I hope that I am making myself understood.)

M

You are making sense. Good luck with the tdoc today Mari.

I know you can do this. I have faith in you.

Will be looking for a update tonight.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

Mari good luck with appointment
 

Hi Mari

Yes your posts are clear.

Re dosing of an oral solution (for any med, if you went that route) ... I think you can probably do a good job convincing hubby of stakes involved in getting things wrong, and in terms of the impact on him.

Mostly I am posting to wish you well with your new tdoc today. I hope she is a warm, kind person and that she is very gentle with you today. I hope too that she is willing to defer getting into the sleep thing. She certainly might ask - it is a natural question - and if you chose to keep her as a T she would need to be brought up to speed on that, but it doesn't have to be today.

I will be back when I can, to check on you. I have a bad headache today that only partly responded to meds. :o Also my internet connection has been flaky - (provider side). But I'm keeping you in my thoughts and sending good vibes.

And hugs :hug::hug::hug:

waves

I think you are very clear in your posts here Mari. I am glad you have us to talk to and that you have hubby to help you. :) Please keep us posted on how it goes. :) ♥

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Hi Mari

i've been checking to see how things went today.

you are probably exhausted. or maybe just not up to posting.

i hope that you are ok. :circlelove:

((((((((( hugs )))))))))

waves

new tdoc
 

Hi,

On Thursday when I called I asked her if she worked with people with bipolar. She explained some things that sounded good. She said we might spend two sessions . .. . {something I cannot remember exactly but I understood that she figured we would need 1.5 to 2 sessions to get to know each other}.

On Friday, she was friendly and smiled a lot and I felt at ease.
She covered a lot of ground without making me feel grilled:
how long dx'd, any hospitalizations, any others in family dx'd , . . .

When I told her that every psychologist said the sleep thing was a medical issue and every MD said it was a psychological issue, she said that it is probably a little of both. She said that we can talk more about how maybe I am too hard on myself about sleep and how maybe we can find ways to deal with how I feel about lack of sleep.
I left her office hopeful.


I have an appointment with pdoc in his office on Thursday/ May 23.
I have the second appointment with this new tdoc on Friday/ May 31.

Mari

Mari

I'm so glad this sounds so uplifting for you.

I believe you are taking a step that you needed to.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

I am glad that she was nice.
bizi