Mari,
I know that you have been having a hard time, sorry that you had to work yesterday...hopefully you get to rest today.
just thinking about you
((((HUGS)))
bizi

Hi, Bizi,
You are sweet.
I did 18 minutes on the bike at the gym earlier. But it seemed to make my anxiety worse. Tonight I have am having chest pains -- I only get these about once a year.

Tomorrow the meeting is far away/long communte at 9:30 am. Hubby just came in and asked me when I was going to bed. I dunno.

I bought a chocolate cake after the gym and ate 3/4 of it within a very short period of time. That probably didn't help the anxiety.

My sister says if I can't handle the meeting tomorrow I should just tell them I have to leave and then come home. I will do that. It's just that this is an important meeting and there are only 5 of us and so forth. Maybe I should have been upfront and asked to be excused...

I need a rest.
Believe it or not, I am doing my best to pace myself and think about being able to relax.

Mari

Hi,
Update with good news -- sort of.

I was putting out our vits and supplements for tomorrow and realized that something in the vits and supplements could be causing the chest pain/anxiety today. I had sort of stopped taking them, only remembering to take them twice a week or so and had recently gone back to every day.

I guess I can't handle this current mix for every day of the week.

Last year, when I had the chest pains, it was caused by taking calcium supplements.

The short version: I don't feel crazy right now.

I can deal with trying to sleep and trying to get through the day tomorrow.
Everything is ok.
I will be more careful about the vits and supplements.
Geez. Do I have to learn this lesson each year?

Thanks for listening.

M.

Oh mari...
I am sorry that you are having this anxiety.
Hope that you got some sleep last night.
I know that this is usually a stressful time of year...hang in there
you can do this...you can do this
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Mari
Sending you some hugs. ANd I know you can do this too.

Donna

Hi,
I appreciate hearing from you.
I had 2-3 hours of sleep last night and made it to the meeting and performed well. I got home around 5:30 pm.
What's wrong with me that I have not gone to bed yet? I'm tired but have been busying myself with email and stuff that is not important.

And my chest hurts. I wonder if it is muscular. I wonder if I strained it from carrying my school book bag out of the car Sunday night?

At least the anxiety is mostly gone.

One time when I had this kind of chest thing going on I went to the ER. They admitted me for 24 hours for cardiac check even though the ER doc was pretty sure that the pain I was feeling was "muscular."

The body speaks in many ways. I can't keep up with its languages.

M.

Dear Mari,
I am glad to hear that your anxiety is decreasing...the meetings must have been weighing heavy on you.
glad for the report!
(((HUGS)))
bizi