[Brokenfriend]

I feel like I have been shunned all of my life when it comes to these mental health challenges. I thought that I was the only one who had a web of emotional problems that where sort of like being in a maze when I was becoming a teenager. It got worse when I was a young adult.

Then the phobia clinic was brought to the public attention,and made news in the media. My dad started to understand me. That was a relief,but the damage had already been done,and I want to be by myself. The bipolar,OCD,manic mood swings,and other problems are all difficult to live with,and are not understood by people.

It seemed like I was all by myself most of my life. I had several good friends when I was a kid who I'm grateful to have had.

I just want to withdraw. I want to get away from everybody. Its not possible for people who don't have mental heath issues to fathom the eminence interconnecting nature of it all.

Being shunned is damaging. Being bullied is damaging to the heart,and the pain cannot be expressed. People who bring division are not helpful. I can try,but how can I find help when I've been damaged by so many people on top of having these inherited mental health problems. It's a double,or triple whammy.

So it is inherited. Then some people attack you because they enjoy seeing you hurt. Then we have problems getting doctors,or councilors to help us. It's hard to make a living,and it's hard to marry,and have kids. One,two,three,four,five,then six if we couldn't handle having kids. It's also hard to get,and/or afford insurance.

I'm still here. I have survived much abuse,and tremendous emotional pain,and mistakes from people who didn't understand what was going on with me.

We are surviving a tremendous group of mental health issues that are unable to be fully explained. BF