[Nikko]

Okay, we have some people not checking in or posting.

I can't put all the names - but you know who you are so check in please.


Hugs, Nikko

[DiMarie]

Hi Nikko,
I am here. Been car hunting, but took off today with a headache...Need more money or else buy an older model car, more mileage.
I hope Pamster is ok in the move, Nikko has a new friend, Bizi gets sleep, sadme is a happyme for the weekend, and everyone is feeling better from dreads and knows they have a hug from me.

Hi BF, rest, love and laundry this weekend?
Hugs to you all I missed,
Di

[Mari]

Hi,
'Having chest pains for the past two weeks. 'Can't figure out what is causing it.
.....not muscular, not from vitamins, not from anxiety.......
not from those as far as I know.

I've gotten this off and on over the years, It reminds me of anxiety. But I don't feel anxious.

Otherwise ok. Sometimes hubby is too much energy for me.

Mari

[bizi]

Dear Mari,
I hope your chest pains go away real soon and never come back.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[MM's Mom]

Mari, I went through a period of chest pains several years ago. Turned out I was having esophageal spasm. Don't have them anymore at all (thank goodness). Hope yours turns out to be something simple too. have you been to the doctor?

[fiberowendy2000]

Here too....just can't get on the computer on the weekends because of my husband. But I am here.

[sadlyme]

Sitting here tonight listenin to The Beatles tryin to stay calm about the doctors tomorrow. I'm sorry for not staying in-touch, this month has been the pits. I listen to what each of you say. It's up to me, do I, can I get healthy again? I wonder what that feels like "normal". Can I function on the other side of this madness and pain I live in? I can't picture it, go to work, be there for my family, a leader. That thought scares me as much as where I'm at now. FAILURE is my middle name. Is it wrong to beg that something else would be wrong with me so they could cut it out, or what ever except the problems I have?
I told my primary one of these days he will never see me again. Scary, but these are the thoughts I have.. Shelly don't be mad, you told me to open up, here it is.
I'm actually afraid to see the doc's, I don't know what will come out, the rage that's building inside about the medical people I see is going to come out one day..

I sit here and read your post, some happy, most reaching for something like me. I'm getting to I don't know what to write, I just keep repeating myself.

My son will home from Iraq in June, thank god. He pulled his last TDY. I have to keep it together for him. He dos'nt know much, no one has told him of my down hill slide.
He had enough on his mind dodging IDE's. But he'll be ****** that he was'nt told, one step at ah time.

Dumped enough, sorry.. Belive in me, please...


Has Paul said, (Let It Be)

[Mari]

[QUOTE=sadlyme;104063]

My son will home from Iraq in June, thank god. He pulled his last TDY.

Hi,
That's good news, something for you to look forward to, and a reason as good as any other believe in getting better.

Don't they give the guys losts of debriefing now about coming home and reconnecting with family? He's not going to be ******. He's going to be thankful for your support and love.


This is going to sound weird, but I say this every so often on the forum.
I don't fight my disorder. I embrace it. I try to talk to it, feed it, give it what it needs .......(you're not the first one to call me crazy! )

When I stopped fighting and trying to conquer, I did better. This is certainly not true for everybody, but it worked for me. I learned that it was going to be my companion and that I was going to learn to live with. I accepted life. I also decided that since I was going to live with it, it was going to need to accommodate me a little better. I think that that is around the time I started getter better about speaking up to the pdoc about my needs.

M.


Yes. We can thank Paul for Beautiful lyrics.


When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.

For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.

[Nikko]

First of all - you are NOT a failure. BP is a disorder that is treatable. Finding out is the tough part, once you accept it, which is not easy, and the meds kick in, you will feel much better and look back and thank God you were finally diagnosed correctly.

Tell your p-doc all your feelings, don't hold back.

Take it a day at a time, or even a moment - try to just live in the moment.

When those bad thoughts run through your head, call someone ASAP.

Hang in there, it will get better. Remember baby steps as they say.

Hugs, Nikko

[sadlyme]

M.
Thanks for taking the time, I never thought of embracing my problems. I was always told if you did'nt fight you would lose..

The man of a thousand voices, but nobody seems to hear him!!