Yup, went today to get the check to the manager and she is going to get the receipt from the gas man tomorrow and things will be all set by the time we get there day after tomorrow. That's the good news.

I am just upset it's too big of a truck and that we've got to put gas in it on top of paying over 90 bucks to use it. I bet that was hard to leave that apartment Mari. I am tearing up now just thinking about saying goodbye to this place, it's been six years. Good and bad but six long years with my family here.

It's seen Jackie's growth and his teeth coming out and coming in and so many things and memories. It might be hard to believe but I have distanced myself emotionally from this so that I can get through it but I am really going to miss this place. It's okay to cry I know, but I think I will just try to save it up until we're there and then cry in my new bathtub with some bubble bath.

Thank you for being here Mari, you and all the others here are really helping me to get through this. Thanks god for this place. I am so glad I am welcome here to be with people who really understand what it's like being BP, and having to rely on medications to help 'maintain a normal' state of being. I know not everyone here takes meds, but those who don't have their own reasons which I can totally appreciate, I can only speak for myself and that I know you've talked about taking meds and how they helped you too so it's good to know that I am not alone in needing help to keep it together.

I would be all over the place if things hadn't worked out the way they did a few years ago with my current T. She nailed me quick and helped me to get better results fast because she listened to what I was telling her and judged me by herself and gauged my reactions well enough that she put the BP II dx in front of me in such a way that I really had to take it. Now I am not scared of it so much, but I am scared of what life was like before meds.

I am glad she understands about the anxiety too, she said she thought me taking one mg of avitan wasn't bad if it was helping the anxiety which plagues me every day lately and I am sure it will continue in the new place for awhile at the very least, but I hope to in time get over needing that benzo. But if I can't for awhile then I accept it too, but it was horrible when I needed it and didn't have it you know?

Thanks everyone, two more days and it will be over...

Hugs for the room....
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi Pamster, Just the change of a new place my do you good. We were all born and raised in Ca. , me, my husband, two kids and a grandson. When the houses went to 929,000.00, we said ,thats it. We picked up and moved half way across the U.S.. Boy was that hard. One of my kids stayed in Ca.for now. It hasn't been easy, but it is cheaper. I have fibro. so I take it one day at a time. You'll see, it well all be ok. Good Luck

Thanks for the hugs bizi, I needed some.

You're probably right rashelle. I am just so stressed out over all of this because it's like leaping into the unknown and I am really scared of establishing a new routine. My autistic son seems to be ready to have this happen but I can't be sure he's really understanding everything yet until we're in the middle of the move and he's helping. I feel so conflicted about things, we'ld have stayed here if they hadn't jacked the rent up another 50 bucks but as it stands we'll be saving close to a hundred a month if it goes well so I know it's worth it.

One more day and then I will know what it's like there in the new place. *shiver, shiver*

Dear Pam,
You are doing great.

Your son will take his cues from you and you seem to be on track.
The new place will be fabulous.

Mari

Dear Pamster,
Just one more day....you are doing great!
Sorry to hear about the ear infection...hoping the anti biotics work soon.
Easy off makes a cleaner that works in 30 minutes now if you needed something else to do....lol
Take care...don't hurt yourself and be careful...your computer will be off line for a couple days?
We will miss you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thanks Mari, I think it will be too. Just getting there is the hard part, at least it's almost over. That is comforting. To think that this time tomorrow we'll be getting ready to take the truck back and go by Wendy's for dinner makes me really feel better. It's going to be a lot of work, I have to help move all three dressers and the tv stand and one bed, the other two are going to get loaded into the truck with help from the guys at the thrift store I hope. They are only twins so they should be easily moved.

I do think I am on the right track because we're really ready now and Jackie is ready...He wants his big truck ride. My mom bought Jackie some adorable sheets too: http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html...sin=B000EN0RRY He picked them out by himself from photos I showed him of Spiderman, Superman, Batman and Spongebob sheets. He wanted the all sports ones. He is sitting here half asleep on the couch from the codeine in his cough syrup, it is to help his ear pain from the inner ear infection he got from swimming last week.

It might not be the best time to move, like the hottest time of the year and all, but we're going to get it done, Jack and I are determined to get it done and we will. Thanks to you, Mari, bizi, and a big thanks to everyone else for the moral support, it's really helping. I figure I will be offline for a day or two at least while the more important stuff gets set up and unpacked. But I will be back as soon as I can to show pics and stuff of us in the new place.

I haven't learned how to make a new post or thread, yet. Today I got a bill from a water therapy rehabilitation that I took for one month; three 1 hour sessions a week. All my Medicare Advantage paid on it was $200; and all Medicare paid was $61.00. I owe $611. I dread seeing what my gastric tests and appointments will be after Medicare and insurance pays their part. I am on social security with just enough income to stop me from being eligible for state help; but not enough to cover the excess bill. I have no savings; and am unable to work due to Fybro, Arthritis, Barret's Disease, and Diabetes. Until Sept. I had no Medicare or Insurance and just suffered unless I felt like I was dying. Now I am thinking I must go back to just not going to the doctor and suffering. What do others do in this situation? Normally I am very positive and upbeat. I prefer to pay my bills and be responsible. Are we who are on fixed incomes and dependent on Medicare and supplements supposed to become deadbeats because we can't pay our bills. Hopefully the new Presidential Administration we vote in this year will have an answer for those like me and others in like situations.

May the Blessings Be;
Lynda

Do you have medicaid? That should pick up when Medicare doesn't. Welcome to the board Lynda, I am so sorry things are looking down for you finanicially, I definitely understand, this place we moved into that this thread was posted about just jacked our rent up by fifty bucks with NO concern for the lease we signed that doesn't end until June 1st. Anyway, just wanted to post and say my heart goes out to you. Hang in there, if you don't get medicaid yet you should see about it.

No, Pamster; I am getting a few dollars too much SS to be qualified for Medicaid. I've been toying with the idea of asking that my SS be lowered. Even though the money would be less; having Medical and prescriptions paid for would more than make up for the cut. I can relate to the price hike where you live. I live at a Senior Community that bases the rent on income. In January the rent was raised and I have only been here since last August. Seems evywhere we turn prices are rising and the belts are tightening. Seems we are all in the same boat; so something will break when so many peop are effected. Good luck. May The Blessings Be. Lynda