[Dmom3005]

Ginnie

Sending you thoughts for a recovery. Thanks for sending a note.

Donna

[Mari]

Originally Posted by bizi

Ginnie wrote this to us in another forum:

Which forum I wonder?

M

[bizi]

I miss all of you very much and still keep NT in my
prayers. This site has and always will be a blessing
to me. Take care Bizi and gang. ginnie


ginnie wrote to me at the weight loss forum
and gang meant you guys!
bizi

[waves]

Links to Ginnie's posts in the weight loss forum thread, in case anyone else wants to chime in there:


http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/post1094707-142.html

Originally Posted by ginnie

I try to keep up on what is happening to you too. I wish your weight loss was easier. You mentioned alcohol being the culprit, any chance you could change that one desire to something else that brings pleasure? I have heard if you substitute something you really want or like, it helps to get rid of the habit you don't like. Remember the old cig adds where they would put a pack in water and then let it sit awhile. Well it ruins your love of cigs that day anyway.

Stand by someone who is sick from booze and make yourself be around them. Maybe seeing someone really __it faced would shock you a bit. Bizi you are such a good woman, and so kind to others. There has to be a way that you can enjoy all of life like you deserve without drinking. My folks were heavy drinkers, and it scared me so much I don't touch much at all. A glass of wine when out to dinner. Maybe work at a drunk house for a day, something to get under your skin.

I know this is crazy, but you have struggled so hard with this, and I can't tell you how much I respect you for doing so.

Is there some great tasting drink you do like without alcohol? Wish I could do something to help you on this road of yours. Just keep trying Bizi. we are all behind you.
My news....
I am in heavy duty therapy as my shoulder cannot have the surgery. The nerve is not trapped, it is compressed from all areas from swollen tendons,muscles, and the sheath that covers the ulner nerve. I blew out my arm trying to take care of this place, this jungle. ruined the ulnar nerve actually as the entire arm is inflamed. Have neuro massage which is hell several times a week. Water therapy, wax therapy, acupuncture, hot and cold therapy, and PT for the rest of me. I am in and out of some office almost daily. Can't believe how bad that neuro massage hurts, OMG!!!!
The thing is this arm is so bad, that If I do not do something I will lose my ability to use it altogether. Being an artist, that would be devastating to my mental health. You cannot give up what you are, and believe me working with my left hand is awful. I dropped more things the last month than I have in a life time.
All is well in the love dept. If I can get well this fall, and be able to at least cut a cabbage, I will marry this man come Jan. Don't think I will be out of therapy until then. Also I have to save money, and so does my son in order for me to return. No expense with lodging, only food and transport. The new frog I am workng on in beads is adorable.
Just wanted to catch up with you and folks as I have not been around for a time, and this has been the reason.
I miss all of you very much and still keep NT in my prayers. This site has and always will be a blessing to me. Take care Bizi and gang. ginnie

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/post1094809-144.html

Originally Posted by ginnie

Think I would rather have a baby than the neuro Massage. Sounds great right? nice music, in fact bring your own, candles, nice smell. Well, while one side is being really invaded by fingers that know every nerve, the other half is curled into some fetal position in hopes of some kind of protection from the pain. Tears stream down, the snot runs, groans and moans are constant. If it weren't so painful it would be funny. Even got a charlie horse, begged her to give the break too. Real intensive and I didn't know that kind of therapy existed. Athletes that blow out a leg, arm or body part, this is the kind of therapy they receive in hopes of recovery. My age works against me, but I will fight for sure. My art is at Stake. Fiancee is very supportive. Soon as this arm is well enough, I will return to Jamaica. Hope to Marry at that time in that country. Visas on this end are two to four year wait. I am not young and neither is he!
UP SIDE OF THIS. after 6 treatments,, and being a pin cushion, the intensity of the pain is down a bit. My son says that is great as I am responding. I have to believe that this will work. The other thing I found out is that the tendons in my hands, have atrophied and pulled the tendons inward and shortened. Big time, and I have intensive therapy there also so I can keep my hand. doing 4 kinds of therapy, My son is paying for it. No choice if I want to keep my arm and hand going. If I am to be a Jamaican wife I have to at least be able to cut a cabbage!
I cannot give up being an artist so I must do this and succeed.

I hope you succeed too Bizi. You are one neat lady, with an intense desire to do good in life. Wish there was some easy fix to make your struggle easier. I guess no matter what we all go through, we do need each other.
Well I guess the cats out of the bag who I am going to marry. He is Rasta, to complete the picture. Ginnie never did stay on the path expected of me. I sure didn't expect this path. xxxto all of you, ginnie

[bizi]

Alcohol intake for september so far.....
9-1 DD So many margaritas at a cook out! had fun!
9-2 very mod 1 drink
9-3 DD 3 drinks in one hour. heart is pounding
9-4 AF
9-5 DD black cherry mikes hard lemonade, wine tasting, beer tasting, whiskey tasting then pumpkin stout! yum!
9-6 AF
9-7 DD 2 pints of cider and a shot of cinnamin whiskey for the cider yum!
9-8 MOD one pumpkin stout ( 10 1/2% alcohol so really it was equal to 2 beers.)
9-9 DD 2 pumpkin stouts, 2 pints of cider and a shot of cinnomin whiskey.

AF=alcohol free
Mod equals a couple of drinks
DD is too much 4 or more drinks in one setting.
Looking at this I have been DD every other day this month.
This is unacceptable.
I am going to take a much needed break from drinking.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

I think one of the best ways to keep a eye on this is your chart.

I think they are big eye openers.

Donna

[bizi]

thank you donna!
bizi

[bizi]

calling it 3rd day AF, did not go to a birthday party for a friend with hubby because it was held in a bar. We ate an early dinner and then he went with out me. Hard to not drink alcohol in a bar! I am a social misfit so I usually end up drinking to ease my anxiety. Which is not good. Best that I just avoided the whole affair.
bizi

[Mari]

Hi, Bizi,

It has good to make diary like that to get a look at the overall picture.

Keep taking care.

M

[bizi]

weight was 147 this morning! That is 10 pounds in 10 weeks.
It's been months and months since I hit that weight. so easy to gain and hard to lose.
Today is my 5th day alcohol free.
bizi