[Nikko]

Just a little bit ago, I fed my birds. All of a sudden I heard them screaming. I think my female dog, unhooked the latch to the cage, she can open just about anything, because I feed them from the side panels, where you don't have to open the cage, only really to clean the cage and change their bird bath water.

My female bird seems fine. My male lost a load of feathers, he is now at the bottom of the cage. I covered the cage again, because birds get stressed real easy.

It happened once before and my male bird got out, and he was okay.
This time is worse. I don't have a Vet for my birds, nor do I have the money to even bring him to one.

I am going to go to the pet store and get something for sick/stressed or whatever they have. There is no blood anywhere, which is good.

If he doesn't make it, which I pray he will.

I hope my female bird doesn't die from depression or not having him, if he doesn't make it.

This all sucks, I feel terrible and I can't stop crying again.

Lately, I don't even get dressed, I can't seem to get motivated to even clean my house, do laundry, nothing. I still haven't picked up my Cymbalta, but it's not that, because I was like this when I was still taking it and it's only been a few days.

My pain issues are real real bad. The muscle relaxants my Dr. called in - don't help, nor do my pain med. I guess she will have to change my pain med.
But it's Tuesday and that is her day off.

My neck fusion pain ( 2 level with plate and screws) down onto my shoulder blades are killing me. If I do anything, it makes it so much worse. I know I am full of arthritis in my spine too. Plus L-4 (lumbar) is trying to fuse to nothing, because I had L-5 out in 1989, so that hurts too. I can't have anymore surgery, I have to take care of my mom and the house. Nor do I want anymore surgery. I couldn't handle it. My Ortho said that was the next option that I was looking at down the road, I guess I am down at the end of that road. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I am wondering if there is something else wrong with me, maybe Fibro? I don't even know much about that, but my body hurts a lot.

Enough of me - have to go check my birdy's.

Hugs, Nikko