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06-02-2015, 06:46 PM | #1 | |||
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Legendary
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I think I have been running hypo. The other day a friend told me on the phone that I sounded manic. I told him I was really wound up about a lot of things but it seemed more like anxiety, and he agreed it was hard to tell them apart.
Later I talked to another friend for a while too, and after that my mind was a total whirlwind. I was too messed up to focus on the course application I've been working on. I was not too messed up to attempt to answer an email I got (guess who), which threw me eighteen different emotional directions. Suffice it to say I now have about six different drafts, all with lengthy and in some cases rather too-marvellous-for-email pieces of writing... some delightful, some scathing, some musing, some instructive, some tongue-in-cheek, you name it. I covered every attitude on the frikkn planet. [aside, and not joking: Can anybody think of a way I can package that and SELL it? ] I continued on these yesterday, even though I had taken a med the night before, but then.... without much real warning, I crashed pretty hard. I have since been back working on my application, for the most part. I think I'm overworking that a bit too, but at least it is something ultimately constructive, and bit by bit, parts are being completed, so there is some net progress amidst all the wheel-spinning. =============== Anyway, I now think my friend was right. I have been running hypo. Tthinking back to the past few weeks, I realized there have been other "tell-tale signs" I had not stopped to think about. There was one blatant one that almost always means I'm hypo too, but I just hadn't stopped to think about it... till it went away with my crash yesterday. I have taken a couple of doses of my long-acting benzo lately, and it seems that is mostly what has helped bring me down a notch. I guess I will take more tonight. It is an anxiolytic but can also help with mood stabilization, kinda like Klonopin. Even so, I don't know if I'm "done". The crash took me down a bunch, yeah, but mind is still going like gangbusters I realize. Sometimes I'll like mini-crash but bounce back -- almost like normal mood swings but above baseline. So I guess, until I come back to good and chill (or depressed! ), I need to be ultra-careful about my interactions with people, especially new people. Rats, and I just thought I was stepping up to the "ordinary life" plate, albeit with some difficulty, and feeling very overwhelmed! Oh and hey, if you think I sound pretty 'normal/sane' and you disagree I sound manic, let me know. (Or if you agree too.) All feedback is good, and I'll still be careful. waves |
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06-02-2015, 06:48 PM | #2 | |||
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Legendary
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There is a meet up on Thursday with a different group. I have felt a bit burned/pressured by the other group, especially the leader, so I started checking out different groups again. This one had caught my interest before, but they were meeting too far away; now they are meeting in the city.
The group description and interest tags are more well-rounded... more laid back. The introductions I've read by the organizer seem to me more about hanging out in English, and having a good time just using English, rather than people trying to focus on it. It is led by a guy who sounds bilingual or close. It more suits the original reasons I joined the meetup groups, last year, before all of my need-to-meet-business-contacts ideas. The upcoming event is at a nice-ish bar, and seems pretty low-key... go listen to some music, kick back and have some light conversation over a beer. Sounds very chill. But now I don't know if I should go at all. It might be better to just stay at home and stay very, very, privately, guardedly, low-key. Any opinions on this? |
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06-02-2015, 07:50 PM | #3 | |||
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HI waves.
You know yourself best. If you have been running hypo for longer than a week than isn't that manic? The tail spin stuff sounds manicy. The writing many different responses sounds manicy too. I think you can wait until thursday to decide if you want to go or not. (((((HUGS))))) bizi
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06-02-2015, 08:07 PM | #4 | ||
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Just wondering if you have had your thyroid checked. Some years ago, my GP ran some lab work. At the time, I didn't realize she had also checked thyroid testing. Some days later, the doctor called to say my blood results shows I have Graves Disease (Hyperthyroid). I had never heard of Graves Disease before. My doctor gave me the name of an Endocrinologist to see. I was treated for Hyperthyroidism for a few years; eventually became Hypothyroid.
Many symptoms you write about are so similar to how I felt when I was Hyperthyroid; that's why I asked about thyroid testing. Gerry |
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06-02-2015, 10:14 PM | #5 | |||
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Thanks Bizi....
That's true, I can just wait until Thursday to decide about going out. Thanks for the feedback on the other stuff, too. I don't know how long I've been like this... seems like it was gradual. Maybe a week, two, three... ? I started smoking again too, on impulse two days ago but have kept it up. ------------ Oh rats! I forgot my benzo tonight! Not used to taking it. Will take a little now. |
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06-02-2015, 10:15 PM | #6 | |||
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Hey, Ger,
Thanks for the observation. Sorry that happened to you! I have not had thyroid labs recently, but have in the past. It's true the sx are similar, actually both hyper- and hypoactive thyroid mimic mood disorders, but they typically cause other sx not least of which weight loss (hyper) or gain (hypo), eye changes, skin changes... I don't have any... only mood sx. And it isn't a first for me either... this happens from time to time. |
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06-02-2015, 10:26 PM | #7 | |||
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Wisest Elder Ever
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Do you still have zyprexa if you need it?
Do you have a pdoc on board if you need one? bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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06-02-2015, 11:13 PM | #8 | |||
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My pdoc treated me for depression this winter, so yes, I can call him if things seem too much. I'm not really willing to go back on meds though. I'm not willling to take Zyprexa and most other things didn't help.
I mostly just wanted some feedback from here on how I've been sounding recently (past few weeks). I know it carries limited weight because reading someone is different than being around them, but still. Other than that, I just plan to try to chill, and proceed with extra caution on social interactions, where I tend to get into trouble. |
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06-03-2015, 12:52 AM | #9 | ||
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[QUOTE=waves;1146013]Hey, Ger,
Thanks for the observation. Sorry that happened to you! I have not had thyroid labs recently, but have in the past. It's true the sx are similar, actually both hyper- and hypoactive thyroid mimic mood disorders, but they typically cause other sx not least of which weight loss (hyper) or gain (hypo), eye changes, skin changes... I don't have any... only mood sx. Waves, In a way, I was fortunate when I was Hyper; I lost weight and was able to eat & drink chocolate Malts all I wanted; didn't gain a pound. Since I didn't have any bulging of the eyes, the Endo felt I had not had not been Hyper for too long of a timed before being diagnose. Did have a bit of hair loss; but when I went on Tapazole that all cleared up; never had the skin problem either. But still felt some of the hyper effects; moods, anxiety, irritability, etc. (You are right they are somewhat similar.) Unfortunately the so called "good times" changed after a few years and now am Hypothyroid so even tho I am on Synthroid, still have to be careful with weight. I get lab tested every 5 months. Once thyroid issues; always thyroid issues. |
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06-03-2015, 01:36 AM | #10 | ||
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Legendary
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Hi waves
Just wondering - thinking back to this exact time last year [end of Spring/beginning of Summer] were you feeling the same? |
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