Kay,

You have a great therapist.

Are you getting any sleep these days?

I hope that the appt goes well Friday.

M

I got some more sleep last night, but *POP* right out of bed to pee and clean the cat boxes...

I don't remember psycho-motor agitation to this degree. But I was increasingly self-medicating.

I am in my own personal hell right now. And today I'm angry.

NOT S/S. NO BEER

Kay

kay just to suggest: that maybe some of this agitation could be from your abstinence of beer if you were drinking it regularly before.
just a thought sweetie.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Kay
I sure hope your okay. Not sure why the ER, unless its worse.

donna :hug::grouphug:

Good luck to you, Kay.

:Heart: :Heart: :Heart:

M

hugs to you kay
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

'Sending good thoughts, Kay.

:hug::hug::hug:

M

I went to the ER because I became S/S.

I'll stay in as long as I need to this time.

I have my phone, but won't be reading or posting again until I get released. I just wanted you all to know I'm safe.

Hugs,
Kay

P.S.
Bizi, I wasn't drinking regularly before this episode and had nothing aside from 4 beers on Monday (ER on Fri).

Kay

Thanks for letting us know. I will continue thinking about you.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

(((((HUGS))))))
thanks for letting us know. I hope you get some help.
bizi
I hope I did not sound judgemental , lorde knows I drink too much!:(

Hi, Kay,

It is nice to hear from you.

I hope you are feeling better.


M

I'm still inpatient, but am due to be released tomorrow. Tomorrow can't come soon enough.
Last time I was here I didn't stay long enough, this time I think I've overstayed my welcome...
I get anxious when other people are suffering. Most of the content also triggers for me.
They can't fix 35 years of trauma in 7 days. I need to continue individual therapy at home.
MS enduced pain and physical and mental fatigue are wearing me very thin. And compounding these issues.

Still better. No s/s ideation since Saturday.

So, I'm taking it easy today, looking forward to tomorrow, and trying to keep my eyes on my own paper.

P.S.
Bad AA meeting last night. Guess the guy running it forgot that there were detox pts AND psych pts there. I told him after it was "a little too over the top for me." He just shrugged his shoulders and walked away. I brought it up to the psychiatrist at the am meeting... Don't expect that guy will be running meetings here in the future.
And I didn't go to AA this morning.

Kay,

You are strong and getting better.:hug::hug::hug:

I am happy to hear that you are going home tomorrow.

That AA meeting -- how awful. They are idiots sometimes.

I hope that the psychiatrist helped you during your stay.

M

I was released au natural yesterday and am very happy to be home. :)

I said I would stay until my psychiatrist said I was ready to come home, and I kept my promise. He's proud of the work I did, as am I.

I feel much better.

I've already made follow up appointments with my old pdoc and therapist this week for continuity of care, but see my PCP next week and will ask him for recommendations for new mental health providers.

In the meantime, I am going to relax, catch up on some sleep, and enjoy being home. :)

Kay

P.S.
Also an AA meeting on the horizon.

Glad All is Well
 

Hi Kay,

I had responded to your post in a different forum and then caught up with you here.

You have been through a lot! Glad you had a safety plan to follow.

Glad you are well and enjoying being home! :)

Warmly,
DejaVu

It was good that you went inpatient and stayed long enough for help
 

'Apologies for waiting a day to post to you.


I am thrilled beyond words that you
1 seem to have gotten good care (even though impatient sux) & (got some good drugs)
2 are better
3 sound ok
4 have a plan to see stupid pdoc ( guess she somewhat knows your history)
5 have an AA plan

I am very very happy that you connected with a decent pdoc who helped you.

Thank you for your update.:hug::hug::hug:

M

No apologies!!!

Trying to avoid the whole group practice approach this time around.
A good psychiatrist can recommend a good counseling group (share amongst themselves if desired).

So, I've been searching the internet for commentary based on a list provided by my ins. co. And was able to weed 1 out. I realize that not all reviews are unbiased, but I'm still taking notes.

I see my PCP on Monday and am awaiting his input.
The in-patient social worker recommended I see his case manager because I have to deal with MS issues as well. It's always good to have another advocate.

I see "stupid pdoc" (haha, I love it!) tomorrow at 7:20 am,yes, 7:20 am.

I did keep track of when I started the med, and when the increases were made when I was in-patient, so that should help.
It's probably time for another increase in Abilify now/soon. I really can't wait to see what she has to say on that subject.

I'm going to hit an AA meeting before Friday. It's important to keep the momentum going.

I got a lot of sleep last night :)
And I feel a lot better knowing I'm taking some control.

Thanks again,

Kay

Kay I've been gone for a few days. But am so glad you are home.

Keep us updated.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I hope things get easier for you. You have been through so very much
bobby

I was at the pdoc's office at 7:20am with bells on.

She suggested increasing the Abilify from 5mg-7.5mg. I'm on-board because of increased anxiety and agitation.
I'm much better since starting it, but likely not at my therapeutic dose yet.

Kay

crap. I'm manic again.

Kay,


That is not good.:eek:
. .. . unless you and the pdoc have hope that the Abilify needs two or three days to get past the "up" side effects.

Or maybe you need more time at the lower dose.
Give her a call today.

M

Thanks Mari :hug:

To be honest, I think being home has been a little over-stimulating. What was working in the hospital (in a virtual vacuum) is probably not enough.

I went up to 5mg Friday. From my Abilify experience in the hospital, symptoms start improving for me in 24-48hrs. I hope it's the case here. Therapeutic doses usually run in the 10-15mg range.

I know that I'm hypo, but I'm not in unfamiliar territory this time. I'm just concerned and frustrated that it's happening again, and so soon.

I don't want "stupid pdoc" (haha) messing around with my meds again unless things get worse and/or the 7.5mg doesn't help.

On another front, I've had plenty of energy to go through the list of psychiatrists and group practices my insurance accepts....
The only independent psychiatrist accepting new patients is the ONLY one I will not go to based on web commentary...
And there is only one group practice accepting new patients for "prescribers."
So, I submitted a referral form and expect an appointment sometime in September. I'll probably get another pdoc :eek:

Kay

I got my hands on an emergency appointment at pdoc's office today. I'm not sitting on my hands waiting this time around.

I saw a different pdoc, who I've seen before. I like her, she helped last time, and I trust her advice. She told me to go up from 7.5-10mg on the Abilify (apparently it can be dosed as high as 30).

She also said she could see me in the office tomorrow if necessary.
Damn, I wish she was accepting new patients.

Kay

Kay

You might ask her if she would consider picking you up as a client.

Its possible she would. Knowing how hard things are for you.
Donna :hug::grouphug:

I think I'm going to take a breather from the forum for a little bit until I feel better...

Perhaps talking about all of this is somehow activating?

I'll check in and start a new thread when I'm feeling a little better.

Thanks for all the support and advice :grouphug:

Kay

Kay,

You are working hard to feel better. I hope that you get results soon.

Mari

Do well. :hug::hug::hug:

Mari