Thank you ladies :group hug:
I think things will work out eventually, hopefully not a year from now though.

The walk will do me some good. I will be extra careful crossing the road. I'm leaving around 9 when I know the stores will be open. It will be good to get out of here for a little while.

I've skipping the club because I'm saving the money I'd be paying for the cab fare to pay for my ride to the DMV and to pay the $500 fine to get my license back.

Kay,

You have amazing stamina.:hug::hug::hug:


Mari

No letter yesterday :(

My anxiety is ****ing sky high. I'm using the klonopin as I should, and I'm doing what I can to distract myself, but I'm still absolutely miserable.

After my walk yesterday, I kept myself busy doing two loads of laundry and bleaching out the bathroom, but that didn't occupy enough time and I found myself watching the clock waiting for the mailman to come. The wait was torture.

I'm trying to be optimistic, trying to believe I'll find that letter in my mailbox this afternoon. There's a good chance it could be there. When I requested the 30 day letter it arrived 2 days later.

I'm going to have to distract myself again today. If run out of things to do, I'm just going to have to get creative.

How was your walk yesterday? Could you go again today?
bizi
I am very sorry you are miserable.((((HUGS)))))

how painful
hugs
bobby

The walk wasn't too bad. I wish the weather was nicer though. I'm sore today because it took me about 1 1/2 hrs. It takes my husband less than 20 minutes round trip to walk to the liquor store in that plaza. He wasn't happy I walked over there, but TS.

no wonder you are sore.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

No letter yesterday either :(:(:(

Trying to look on the brighter side yet again…
I guess that's somebody's way of telling me I'm better off waiting to go to the DMV until after the new 1 year suspension goes into effect on Saturday. I guess I'll have a better chance of them lifting both suspensions at once and I'll be less likely to have to make a second trip. Because they're *** holes, I'll probably have to go back a second time for something stupid anyway though… that is is I can get anything resolved at all.

Because my anxiety's been in overdrive, I've called the DMV 100X since I got the letter telling me my license was suspended for another year, but I've only gotten through twice. They both said to blow off that letter and all I need is the NH clearance letter + $500 and I can get my license back.

I don't trust them though. Despite my many calls, they didn't exactly prepare me for my visit to the (incompetent) hearings officer.

I better get that ****ing letter today or tomorrow. I don't see why I wouldn't, but I'm experiencing a lot of catastrophic thinking right now. Unfortunately a lot of it is justified. I hope when I get it, it will relieve some of this anxiety. I don't want to spend the whole weekend feeling like this :(



I'm supposed to get my burn checked out today. It looks grosser, but feels better. I really don't want to go, but I probably will.

For the second time this week, my husband didn't buy me cigarettes so it looks like I'll be taking a long walk again and I'm not happy about it. It's lousy out. It will be cloudy and about 50 degrees by the time I leave, but at least it won't be raining.

lots of hugs ...if only they could help
bobby

Again, no letter :(

Because I'm ****ing ridiculous, I called the NH DMV to make sure they sent the letter to the correct address. They did. They generated the letter at 2pm on Monday, so it went out with Tuesday morning's mail.

It really hasn't been that long. The letter is coming. I'm sure nothing is wrong and it will be here soon, but I'm being impatient and want to control everything because I'm so agitated/anxious.

I'll be stalking the mailman again today. Today will be 4 days since they sent the letter… a good chance it will be in the box… God I hope it will be in the box.


I did go to have my burn checked out and my PCP said it's healing well. I'll still be bandaging it like this for a while.

Grocery shopping today… yay! My favorite!