[Mari]

Hi, Bizi,

I have been thinking about you and hoping that you are doing well.

M

[bizi]

I guess this will be my thread for november!
Had a bad first time full ledged panic attack.
WE did our usual haunting and I drank 5 beers and after watching incidious 2 the movie...I was all freaked out.!!!!!!
very afraid and clinging to jeff.
I was afraid of every thing. it was awful.
slept with the lights on. jeff helped me but I took a zyprexa 15mg that I had from 2008. I thought what the hello I need to calm down.
It worked and zonked me out I was in bed until 4pm. I guess I needed the sleep.
I hope it was not a psychotic episode....
today, I am feeling much better. thanks for asking.
bizi

[Mari]

Hi, Bixi,

Some of those movies are designed for people who want that kind if excitement: the jumps in editing, the loud noises, . .
I am glad that you are ok and found a way to self-medicate.

Have a god week.

M

[Dmom3005]

I don't care for movies that are scary. So sounds like I need to
stay away from that one.

Heehee
Donna

[OhKay]

Can you ask Jeff if he heard you say anything indicative of paranoia? If you are worried that this was truly a psychotic episode?
If you're like me, it won't be an isolated incident.

I hope that it was just a panic attack.

I'll be thinking of you
Kay

[Mari]

Next time, leave the movie and tell Jeff you will wait for him in the lobby.


M

[bizi]

Well actually we watched all three of them one each night thursday incidious number 3, friday number 1 and saturday number 2.
Between going to the 13th gate on thursday then a near by haunted ride and the movies..I am all halloweened out!
Yes I do believe it was paranoia...I was afraid that something was going to get me.
awful feeling.
I feel fine now.
thank goodness.
To have come on and gone so quickly!
bizi
8pm
Now I need to get off this computer and go walk on the tred mill I have been avoiding the gym for a week have said I was going to go and never got around to it.
so I am going!
bizi

[Mari]

Bizi,


I hope that the treadmill went well.

Keep taking care of yourself.


M

[OhKay]

Redirecting your energy to the treadmill seems like a great idea

I'm glad that the feeling of paranoia has passed

And I hope you have a good day

[bizi]

Thanks ladies.
I did make it to the gym last night.
Some how it feels indulgent. I watched tv while there which I don't do at home. Walked 40 minutes about 2.2 miles at 3.5 mph. felt good.
I think my hypomania has subsided.
I feel like the happy feelings have disappeared.
I got up early today to make chilli. We are having some friends over for dinner.
Will see if the social anxiety comes back...I hope not. That was the best thing about the hypomania was not being anxious around people. I wish I could bottle that up.
We will have chilli with black beans and beef, and Onions and peppers
with shredded sharp cheddar cheese and sour cream on the side.
half an avocado
corn muffins
they are bringing some fruit.
they will be here for 6pm.
I am on my 3 cup of coffee....
already called my client this morning to let her know that I will be there late, some time between 10 and 10;30. I want plenty of time to shower and curl my hair. I have looked pretty haggard these past few days. It has been that time of the month which I hate.......can't wait to be done with perimenopause!
I got caught up with charting last night, it was hard focusing, absent mindedly, I even thru some stamps away but retrieved them out of the trash quickly realizing what I did.
sigh
I found out that one of my clients passed away on halloween. She was 98 years old and I loved her.
She was a nurse during WWII.
I just called her daughter and spoke with her. The obit will be in the paper tomorrow for the arrangements. I hope to go to the calling.
Thank you for reading and for your support.
bizi