she is ignoring all my symptoms of bipolar and it is getting me mad
bobby

some people don't want us to use bipolar as an excuse....
my family did that to me in the past. not fun.
I think it is useful to help explain behaviors.
bizi

People suk. We work so hard trying to get through our days.

Yet, we are told to try harder or get a better doctor or at least stop complaining / explaining.

M

it is so ******* frustrating. i told her she appears to know more than all the psychiatrists in the world with their training and experience. she makes me feel worse. I was making some progress and stayed in bed til 10 am. here it goes again. i am making coffee again. she is making me realize how horrible parts of my life are.this week i left the apartment maybe three times to go for little walks with cecilia. going to the senior center was too much for me. all i wanted to do was lie in bed.now i am all back to square one. I think i will have my coffee and read,.
if i can read. this time i don't know how to get myself out of my conflict with know it all stella who thinks i have a choice in the matter of my moods. she thinks i had a choice in sleeping for three hours a night for eight months being so upset over losing abby. I wanted to sleep.
bobby

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Just what you needed right now…

Some people simply can't accept the idea that some behaviors aren't our choice because they really don't understand mental illness. Like Bizi said, some people may feel like we're using it as an excuse. It always made me feel like a piece of **** when my husband would throw that at me because I knew I couldn't change even though I wanted to and there was no way to convince him otherwise.

Knowing you as I do, you've probably already emailed her hundreds of links to literature on the subject, but I know this has been an ongoing issue with her. I'm sorry that she's unsympathetic and making you feel bad Bobby.

I know Stella is your best friend, but I wish she was a better friend to you sometimes. You deserve that.

I'm glad that you have been getting out of the apartment, even if it's only been 3 times. I know that you've been feeling rotten. Going to the senior center is probably a lot to ask right now, but just going on walks is a good thing until you feel better.

I hope you feel better

exactly exactly exactly. i hardly got any sleep last night and hope am not restarting the cycle. think i will email her another letter and ask her if people can control epilepsy schizaprenia and asperbergers.
I sent her this
Bipolar Disorder and Suicide

by Kevin Caruso
http://www.suicide.org/bipolar-disor...d-suicide.html
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It is not our fault that we are bipolar, there should be no shaming in this matter.
bizi

Since Stella is your best friend and such an important person in your life I can totally understand you feeling the need for her to understand bipolar disorder. It's so hard when we're suffering and someone so close to us doesn't get it and they pass judgement on us… but you may be fighting a losing battle trying to get her to understand.

My husband understands a little more about bipolar disorder and understands how serious it is because of everything I've been through. Even though he knows I was misdiagnosed and on the wrong meds, because I'm better now he actually that sees it is evidence that I could have changed earlier if I wanted to. It makes no sense, but that's what he believes. I try to avoid the subject. It's like talking to a wall.

Some people may just never understand and we have to find a way to make peace with that no matter how hard it is for us. Your best bet is to accept the fact that your friend is not going to get it, but find a way to convince her you do not need or want her unsolicited advice about your lifestyle because it is extremely hurtful and good friends do not hurt one another in that way… they love one another for who and what they are…

I love you Bobby, and I wish you didn't have to go through this

stella says she believes in bipolar but she can help me. she said it was foolish of me to go three hours a night for eight months worrying about abby when there is reincarnation. how do you deal with that? she is on mars. it really hurts. it is the last thing i need. at least today my stomach doesn't hurt
love
bobby

oh I am sorry bobby. That is a tough one.
I am glad that your tummy feels better.
bizi
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